ARSON
CHAPTER XIII
I open my eyes with the first lights of the day and find
myself wrapped around Anastasia like a victory flag. I enjoy watching my wife
sleep, the way her body seeks mine even in sleep, snuggling up to me even if
she gets hot. I'm not any different. My body seeks hers day and night, asleep
or awake. I held her like this for I don’t know how long, then get up and go to
take a shower and shave for the day.
After taking my shower, and drying myself I wrap a towel around my
waist and spray the shaving cream into my palm and lather it over my face. As I start
shaving, Anastasia walks into the bathroom. Seeing her in here with me
brightens me up immediately.
“Good morning, Mrs. Grey,” I say playfully.
“Good morning yourself,” she grins back at me watching me
shave. I lift my chin up and start shaving beneath it in long strokes, I see my
wife's reflection in the mirror and note that she's mimicking my movements. As I pull my upper lip
down and shave my philtrum, I see her mirroring me. I turn around and smirk at
my wife with only half my face shaved.
“Are you enjoying the show Mrs. Grey?” I ask.
“One of my all-time favorite,” she murmurs with bright eyes
as if I am the most exciting sight she’s ever seen. I lean down and kiss her
swiftly, and smear shaving soap all over her face.
“Shall I do this to you again?” I whisper lasciviously and
holding up the razor reminding her, the very enjoyable shaving experience of her sex leading up to very satisfying results.
She purses her lips at me, “No,” she mutters, trying to sulk,
failing miserably. “I’ll wax next time,” she says.
“But that was fun,” I say wickedly. It really was. I get hot
just thinking about it.
“For you maybe,” she replies pouting, but she can’t fool me.
She loved every second of the aftermath.
“I seem to
recall the aftermath was very satisfying,” I say turning back to finish
shaving. She looks down at her hands, blushing. This is our
honeymoon. I don't want her to feel shy; least of all with me.
"Hey, I'm just teasing. Isn't that what husbands
who are hopelessly in love with their wives do?" I say turning to her, I
tip her chin up and gaze into my wife’s eyes. What is she thinking? Was she
upset about it? I try to decipher her expression, the ever present fear in the back of my
head cocks its ugly head, telling me that she may be unhappy about something. But, her expression
changes to one of playful.
“Sit,” she murmurs.
What? What is she trying to do? She softly
pushes me towards the stool in the bathroom. Confused, I sit down, trying to
understand what she wants to do, or why she wants me to sit down half shaven.
She grabs the razor from my raised hand. Oh shit! She wants to shave me! Is
this payback?
“Ana,” I say in a warning tone. She leans down and kisses me in response.
“Head back, Mr. Grey,” she whispers.
Can I trust her with a razor in her hand? She couldn't even shave herself properly. Can she possibly shave my face so close
to my jugular?
“Tit for tat, Mr. Grey,” she says confirming
my thoughts. Oh really Mrs. Grey? I stare at my wife in disbelief but still amused.
“You know what you’re doing?” I ask in a low
voice. She shakes her head slowly, purposefully, but endeavoring to look
serious. Well, Mrs. Grey, if I’m going to die, it might as well be in your
hands. Do your worst! I close my eyes, shake my head and tilt my head back in complete surrender to her.
Her left hand crawls into my damp hair at my
forehead, holding it tight, Anastasia holds me still in my place. I firmly keep my
eyes closed, and part my lips to inhale deeply. I feel the gentle touch of the
razor, then she strokes it from my neck to my chin smoothly. I feel the absence of
lather leaving a smooth trail behind. I exhale the breath I didn't know I was holding.
“Did you think I was going to hurt you?” she
asks softly.
“I never know what you’re going to do, Ana,
but no, not intentionally,” I respond truthfully.
I feel the razor running up my neck again,
and feel another smooth trail running on my neck.
“I would never intentionally hurt you,
Christian,” she murmurs. Feeling the truth in her words, I open my eyes, and
embrace her while she gently runs the razor down on my cheek from the bottom of
my side-burn.
“I know,” I reply and angle my face to give
her a smooth, stretched out surface to shave. Two more strokes of the razor,
and she’s finished shaving me.
“All done, and not a drop of blood spilled,”
she grins proudly.
When I look up at my wife, I feel her legs encasing
mine. And our bodies touching, her legs wrapping mine while she's looking down at me, I get hot, and run my hand upward on her leg pushing her nightdress up. I pull her to me, and make her sit
astride my legs. Her hands hold unto my upper arms to steady herself.
She is so close to me, our faces are merely
two inches away.
“Can I take you someplace today?” I ask.
“No sunbathing?” she asks arching her brow. I
find myself licking my lips nervously, because she won’t be able to sunbathe
for the rest of our honeymoon.
“No. No sunbathing today. I thought you might
prefer something else.”
“Well, since you covered me in hickies and
effectively put the kibosh on that, sure, why not?” she says acerbically which
I ignore.
“It’s a drive, but it’s worth a visit from
what I’ve read. My dad recommended we visit. It’s a hilltop village called
Saint Paul de Vence. There are some galleries there. I thought we could pick
out some paintings or sculptures for the new house, if we find anything we
like.”
She immediately leans back gazes at me
questioningly. Apprehensive even.
“What?” I ask confused.
“I know nothing about art, Christian,” she
replies softly.
I shrug and smile at her fondly. “We’ll only
buy what we like. This isn't about investment,” I reply. Her eyes get wider.
“What?” I find myself asking again unable to
decipher her facial expression. She shakes her head in response unwilling to
answer.
“Look, I know that we only got the
architect’s drawings the other day, but there’s no harm in looking and the town
is an ancient medieval place,” I say. The worst case of scenario, we’ll do some
sightseeing. She frowns and looks upset even. Ah, it’s so hard to comprehend
her sometimes. I wish she was more explicit.
“What now?” I find myself exclaiming. She
shakes her head unwilling to say what’s going through her beautiful head. I’ve
never experienced this before. I got everything I wanted, including answers in
the past. Oh, shit! Maybe she’s still mad about the punishment fuck.
“You’re not still mad about what I did
yesterday?” I sigh, nuzzling my head on one of my most favorite spots in the
world; between her breasts.
“No. I’m hungry,” she mutters. Oh, she gets
cranky when she doesn’t eat. Of course!
“Why didn't you say?” I say holding her up, I
stand, and taking her hand I lead her into the bedroom.
****❦
♡ ❧*****
When we get to Saint Paul de Vence, I feel
relief to see my wife completely amazed with the village. The village is
one of the oldest medieval towns on the French Riviera situated on a hilltop.
It’s full of history, boasts an exquisite scenery, and there are abundant numbers of modern art galleries.
Anastasia is completely ecstatic. We walk arm in arm, as her hand is in the back pocket of
my shorts. Taylor and Philippe are walking behind us at a casual distance.
Anastasia eyes linger on three old men playing boules in a tree-covered square.
She
looks at the game interested in it. It’s called Jeu De Boules or Pétanque
played between two players or teams. One of the players in this game here is
wearing a beret even though the weather is hot and stifling.
The square is full
of spectators, both the locals and the tourists alike. I don’t like the crowds,
and neither does Taylor. So, I gently lead her out of the square into little
alleys lined with stone properties standing since the medieval times. We reach
to a courtyard with beautiful stone fountains, ancient and modern sculptures,
and little boutiques and shops.
A photo gallery grabs my attention at the first glare. It's exhibiting and selling erotic photos. I am distracted for a minute.
Taking my aviator sunglasses off, I start chewing it on the arm, examining the
pictures. The work belongs to an artist named Florence D’elle. The pictures are
of female subjects in various erotic poses. Some are close to what I have taken
before of the submissives.
(The pictures above are by Florence D'elle)
“Not quite what I had in mind,” Anastasia
mumbles after she observes me examining the pictures.
“Me neither,” I reply, grinning at my wife
after noticing her jealousy. I take her hand in mind and stroll to the next
artist's gallery. This artist has painted figurative art, such as fruits and
vegetables in super close up and the colors are extremely vivid.
“I like those,” Anastasia mutters, and I can hear the
relief in her voice. “They remind me of you chopping vegetables in my
apartment,” she says in her giggly girlish voice. I remember that time very
well indeed. In fact I shall remember it till the day I die. It’s the day I
reclaimed my girl back into my life. I try and fail miserably in hiding my amusement.
“I thought I managed that quite competently,” I
mutter. “I was just a bit slow, and anyway,” I say as I pull her into a tight
embrace, “you were distracting me. Where would you put them?” I ask deciding to
buy the painting.
“What?” she asks stunned.
I nuzzle her ear and whisper. “The paintings,
where would you put them?” I ask biting her earlobe to get a rise out of her
and I do. I see her pressing her legs together to suppress her urge.
“Kitchen,” she murmurs in a breathy voice.
“Hmm... Nice idea, Mrs. Grey,” I respond. When
Anastasia notices the price, she gasps.
“Five thousand euros each,” she whispers.
“They’re really expensive!”
“So?” I nuzzle my wife again. I want to put the
world at her feet. “Get used to it, Ana.”
I don’t want her to lack anything; it makes me happy that I can provide
for her well, and give every one of her heart’s desires. I walk to the sales desk where a young woman
dressed all in white is standing and gaping. Knowing Anastasia is watching the
clerk's reaction, I can almost feel her rolling her eyes in response to
this woman ogling me. Somehow knowing that she gets jealous of me, makes me happy. I pay for the paintings, and
we leave the store for some sight-seeing.
Saint Paul de Vence is on French
Riviera. The village was created around the old church of Saint Michel du Puy
and the chateau at the top of the hill.
That’s how the castrum of Saint Paul, a military defensive position was
evolved.
I take Anastasia to Hotel Le Saint Paul for
lunch. The hotel’s restaurant patio sits atop the hill with the view of the
surrounding countryside which is completely stunning. Tables places
strategically around the stone patio and covered with crisp white table cloth
decorated with fresh cut flowers. The ancient stone walls are covered with lush
green ivy, pink and red bougainvillea overlooking the vineyards, hills dotted
with sunflowers forming a fascinating patchwork, and the French farmhouses are
interspersed in this beautiful scenery. The weather is beautiful, and the
Mediterranean Sea in the distance glints its turquoise color invitingly.
Anastasia is looking, but not seeing; she’s lost in thought. I want to bring
her out of her reveries.
“You asked me why I braid your hair,” I say
softly, feeling guilty. Something in my tone alarms her and she looks up
immediately.
“Yes,” she replies with wide eyes.
“The crack whore used to let me play with her
hair, I think. I don’t know if it’s a memory or a dream,” I say. I look into
her eyes, deep, but my emotions are churning and mixed. I don’t want them to be resurfaced; not here anyway.
“I like you playing with my hair,” she says in
a hesitant voice. I’m not sure if she does.
“Do you?” I probe voicing my uncertainty.
“Yes,” she says truthfully. She leans in
scraping her chair on the stone patio, she grasps my hands. “I think you loved
your birth mother, Christian,” she says looking at me. I feel my eyes widening.
I don’t want to think of the crack whore in this context. She didn't love me.
Why would I love a woman who didn't love or protect me? I’m so confused. What if there is truth in what she says? What if I really do love the crack whore? I don’t want it to be true. She didn't protect
me...at all! She found me unworthy of love. How can I love that?
I look down at our connected hands. Fear rises in
me. I’m back being four years old again.
“Say something,” Anastasia whispers, because in
the silence she hears the storms brewing inside me. I don’t want to do this
now. Not on my honeymoon. I don’t want to go to that territory. It’s too dark,
too deep. It’s inescapable! I’ll drag Anastasia down with me, and she doesn’t
need to be there. It’s done, it’s over.
I release Anastasia’s hand, and stand up,
“Let’s go,” I say.
Once we’re on the street, I slowly exhale, and
look around the surrounding narrow streets lined with stone buildings. I pull
myself into the now, into my honeymoon. I finally manage to take Anastasia’s hand into mine.
“Where do you want to go?” I ask.
I hear Anastasia exhaling; she looks relieved.
She shrugs in response.
“I’m just glad you’re speaking to me,” she
says.
“You know I don’t like talking about all that
shit. It’s done. Finished,” I say to her quietly.
Bringing it to the surface doesn’t do me any
good. It drags me down to places I don’t want to be in. It’s been a long time.
It needs to be tucked away, never to be resurfaced again. Now, she’s silent,
contemplative. She isn't the kind of woman who gives up easily. What is she thinking?
I look down at her, amused and wary of her
expression, because I know something is always brewing under that beautiful
head of hers. I just don’t know what it is. But knowing that it gives me life
and excitement as well as a near coronary, I shake my head, and pull my wife
under my arm, as close to me as possible. We make our way through the tourists
towards the spot where Philippe parked the large Mercedes. Anastasia tucks her
hand into the back pocket of my shorts, holding onto my ass. Her intimate gesture
makes me happy.
Before we make our way into the Mercedes, I
notice a small boutique selling fine jewelry. I look into the window and notice
some of the lovely pieces they’re selling. I want my wife to have one of them.
I look down at Anastasia. Grasping her free hand, I gaze down and examine her
wrist where the handcuffs left a faded red line. My thumb runs across it.
Seeing it like this makes me feel like shit. I marked her. I don’t want to hurt
my wife. I need to make up for this.
“It’s not sore,” Anastasia says in a reassuring
tone.
I twist around and free her other hand as well.
The cuff marks are obscured by the Omega watch I gifted her in London. I
examine both the wrists, and feel worse by the sight of the marks. I’m a shitty
husband! Does she think I’m bad for her? I release her hands and lift her chin
up to scrutinize her expression. Does she feel resentment towards me? Does she
hate me? The thought of it is torturing my soul. I’m hurting inside for hurting
my wife.
“They don’t hurt,” she repeats. I hold her
hands up to my lips and kiss the insides of her wrists apologetically.
“Come,” I say tugging her into the store.
I choose a beautiful platinum bracelet for her.
When I pay thirty thousand Euros immediately for the bracelet, the bone thin sales
clerk’s eyes widen, darken with some sort of jealousy. What is her problem? My wife is worth every
cent of it! Tugging my wife close to me, “Here,” I say. The bracelet is an
exquisite piece with delicately crafted filigree in the shape of small flowers
with diamonds at their heart. It’s discriminatingly beautiful; very fitting for
my wife. I fasten it around her wrist.
Because it’s wide and cuff like, the red marks disappear under it.
“There, that’s better,” I murmur, somewhat
relieved.
“Better?” she whispers, gazing into my eyes.
“You know why,” I reply with uncertainty. I
feel horrible having marked her. It’s eating me up.
“I don’t need this,” she says shaking her wrist
and the cuff moves. It shimmers in the afternoon light, sparkling all over the
walls of the store.
“I do,” I say with all my honesty. I want her
to have it. I need to rectify my ways.
“No, Christian, you don’t. You've given me so
much already. A magical honeymoon, London, Paris, Cote D’Azur... and you. I’m a
very lucky girl,” she whispers, melting my insides.
“No, Anastasia, I’m a very lucky man,” I reply.
I never imagined I would find someone I can have this sort of intimacy, with
touching, and sharing myself to the fullest extent, sharing my past and my personal demons; I never thought I
would love this deeply, this passionately, this indelibly! I never thought any of it was possible. And here she is before me. I
sometimes think that I’ll blink and she’ll be gone, or disappear, and it’d be just a
dream.
“Thank you,” she says stretching on her
tiptoes, putting her arms around my neck and kisses me, taking my breath away.
“What’s that for?” I ask smiling once we break
free of our kiss. She shrugs with a glint in her eyes.
“For being mine,” she replies smiling.
****❦ ♡ ❧*****
We finally make our way back to the Mercedes.
It’s the afternoon in the French Riviera. I look outside the window, watching the
sunflowers on the fields, their heads following the afternoon sun. I can’t get
rid of this shitty feeling. I have marked Anastasia. I hurt her. I have marked
my subs before; in fact I enjoyed doing that. It showed my domination over
them: That I was the master, and they were to submit to me. Their misbehavior
was not tolerated and dealt with swiftly. I punished them with various methods.
But Anastasia isn't my sub. She’s my wife! I love her, and the thought of
marking her like this is abhorrent to me, especially knowing that it displeases
her. I’m pulled out of my reveries by Anastasia’s hands clasping mine. I blink
with her reassuring squeeze. I glance at her before releasing her hand, and
caress her knee. Anastasia is wearing a short and full blue and white skirt,
and a mouthwatering blue fitted sleeveless shirt.
My hand travels on her knee, and all of a
sudden I want to check her ankles. With my lingering touch, I feel Anastasia’s
breath catching. Grasping her ankle, I pull her foot on top of my lap forcing
Anastasia to swivel on her backside, facing me.
“I want the other one, too,” I say softly.
Anastasia’s eyes travel to the front of the car
to Philippe and Taylor who keep their eyes on the road like the professionals
they are. Then she places her other foot on my lap. I press the button on the
door and lift the tinted privacy screen up. Once it’s fully raised, we’re on
our own little bubble and in relative privacy.
“I want to look at your ankles,” I explain
quietly. Seeing the marks under the sandal straps grieves me. I gently stroke
my thumb up on her right instep, and she wriggles. She’s very ticklish; her
response makes me smile. I undo the sandal strap, then drop it to the floor. I
caress her ankles, and seeing the marks evident there makes me feel shitty again. I
look out the window without seeing. Her defiance of me, makes me lose control,
and I want to punish her, but then I feel like fucking crap!
“Hey. What did you expect?” Anastasia asks
softly. I glance back at her and shrug.
“I didn't expect to feel like I do looking at
these marks,” I confess.
Collide - Howie
“How do you feel?” she asks.
With desolate eyes I gaze at her.
“Uncomfortable,” I summarize my feelings in a murmur.
Anastasia immediately unbuckles her seat-belt and scoots closer to me; her feet are still on my lap. She comes as close to me
as possible without climbing on my lap. I suspect that she’s shy of the driver.
She holds my hands and I finally find my center.
“It’s the hickeys I don’t like,” she says in a
whisper. “Everything else... what yo did,” she says lowering her voice
conspiratorially, “with the handcuffs, I enjoyed that. Well, more than enjoyed.
It was mind blowing. You can do that to me again anytime,” she says. And her
declaration immediately lifts my spirits up like a shot of adrenaline.
I shift in my seat to directly look at her, see
her facial expression, and feel the truth in her statement.
“Mind-blowing?” I ask.
“Yes,” she replies grinning. She flexes her
bare toes on my growing erection. Fuck! We’re in the back seat of the Mercedes
with a French driver and Taylor in the front seat, my hot wife is sitting next
to me, her toes are caressing my dick and I’ve got a hard on! A sharp intake of
breath fills my lungs, and I part my lips.
“You should really be wearing your seat belt,
Mrs. Grey,” I say in a low voice, but her proximity is something I don’t want
to let go. I feel my Blackberry vibrating in my pocket, and I check my watch.
It could only be work at this time calling with an emergency at this time. It’s
not business hours yet in the States. It should about five or six a.m. in the morning in
Seattle. I fish my phone out and look at the caller.
“Barney,” I snap.
Anastasia tries to remove her feet from my lap,
but my fingers tighten on her ankles firmly.
“Mr. Grey. My apologies sir, however I have to
inform you that there was a fire in the server room very early this morning,”
he says in one breath.
“In the server room?” I ask in complete disbelief.
“Did it activate the fire suppression system?” I ask. The very expensive system
he asked me to put in place only recently.
“Yes, sir, and it worked beautifully.
Immediately suppressed the fire.”
Hearing the word fire, Anastasia pulls her feet
down while she’s nervously fiddling with her new bracelet and this time I let
her lower her feet to the car floor. I press the privacy screen button lowering
it. I need Taylor to hear this news as well.
“Anyone injured? Damage?” I ask.
“No injuries sir, and no damages to speak of.”
“When?”
“About an hour ago. The emergency line was
immediately activated, and it called my phone. I made it to the Grey House as
fast as I could put my shorts and t-shirt on and I called you immediately after I made
sure that no one was injured and the fire was out,” he replies. I look at my
watch again, running my hand through my hair exasperated. It’s not a busy time
of the day in the office at that hour. Hell, there’s hardly anyone in the building, except maybe the security and the cleaning crew.
“Do you want me or Welch to inform the fire
department or the police? Just to emphasize again, the fire has been suppressed
immediately by the new system.”
“No. Not the fire department or the police. Not
yet anyway.” I say. I see Taylor shifting around to hear the conversation.
“Welch and his team have been here since the
second the alarm went to his phone. They’re taking care of everything; checking
the logs, security video feed, employees, and anyone who has been in the
building, who has access to the building, everyone, and everything. He isn't letting anyone leave the building until he questions them himself.
He’s treating it like a murder scene, and his forensic team is here collecting
evidence, dusting and fingerprinting,” he says.
“Has he? Good...”
“Other than what I have informed you, sir,
there’s not much to tell yet. It’s too new, and the evidence has not been
evaluated. As soon as Welch gives me a go ahead, I’ll be able to go and see the
server room. We will create a damage report for you, sir,” He concludes.
“Okay. I want a detailed damage report. And a
complete rundown of everyone who had access of the last five days, including
the cleaning staff... Get a hold of Andrea and get her to call me...”
“Will do sir. The new system containing argon
minimized the damage as I told you it would. We have made a large initial
investment, but with it in place, we have saved millions upon millions of
Dollars of untold potential damage. It was a very sound investment, sir. I’m
quite happy that you've agreed to have it installed. We’ll get those reports
compiled for you and send it to you as soon as they become available.”
“Yeah, sounds like the argon are just as
effective, worth its weight in gold.”
“We don’t have any reports yet, sir. As you
know it’s too early...” he says, but I cut him off.
“I realize it’s too early...”
“Could you give me four hours then, sir?”
“No. E-mail me in two hours...” I reply firmly.
“It won’t be as detailed sir, four hours would
allow me to gather more information...” he says but I cut him off again.
“No, I need to know.”
“Very well sir. I’ll do my best to provide the
most comprehensive information I can gather and e-mail you within two hours. I
better get to it right now,” he says.
Thank you for calling me,” I say and hang up.
I feel Anastasia’s anxious eyes, and Taylor’s
resolute gaze on me. I dial Welch’s number.
“Welch...” he answers on the second ring.
“Mr. Grey, I’m at the Grey House, sir.
Everything is under control,” he says reassuringly.
“Good...”
“Let me gather a little more information, and I
can brief you on the data we have so far collected. When would you like to be
briefed?” he asks.
“An hour then...”
“We are going to route the data and servers to
the offsite data storage until my team completes the investigation. I would recommend tight security at the new site
sir.”
“Yes, agreed...”
“How long?”
“Twenty-four-seven at the off-site data
storage...”
“Already on it sir. I’ll speak to you in an hour then,” he says.
“Good,” I reply and hang up.
“Philippe, I need to be onboard with the hour,”
I order.
“Monsieur,” he replies, and speeds up ahead.
I look at Anastasia and she looks worried. I
slip my mask of impassive expression to erase her worry.
“Anyone hurt?” she asks quietly.
I shake my head in the negative. “Very little
damage,” I reply. Her eyes are wide, her fear is clear. I reach over to her and
clasp her hand, and squeeze it reassuringly. “Don’t worry about this. My team
is on it,” I reply. I’m the boss, the CEO, the commander of my ship. Anastasia
doesn’t need to worry about this at all.
“Where was the fire?”
“Server room.”
“Grey House?”
“Yes,” I respond giving her as little
information as possible to prevent her from worrying.
“Why so little damage?” she probes.
“The server room is fitted with a
state-of-the-art fire suppression system.”
She nods imperceptibly, silent, worried, and
upset.
“Ana, please...don’t worry,” I say in a
soothing tone.
“I’m not worried,” she says fibbing. She’s not
a very good liar. She’s too worried, too upset about it. I know what she’s
upset about. I’m worried about the same thing. First Charlie Tango, and now
this. I have to get to the bottom of this, and soon.
“We don’t know for sure if it was arson,” I say
voicing her worry, and anxiety. Her hand immediately flies to her throat in
fear. She is terrified. What worries me is that whoever is doing this, whoever
is trying to harm me, might try to harm her, and she’s my world. If they ever
get to her, I’d simply die. I have to find out and do it soon.
****❦ ♡ ❧*****
As soon as we get on board of the Fair Lady, I
nod at Taylor to come along with me and inform him of the fire at the Grey House server room.
“Anything I can do right now sir?”
“No, I’m going to speak with to Welch in a few
minutes. It’s best that you keep an eye on Mrs. Grey should she desire to go to
town. I'll have him coordinate with you,” I say dismissing him.
I lock myself in the study conferencing with
Welch.
“What have you found so far?”
“The preliminary findings are very rudimentary,
sir. The details are sketchy. I have viewed the security videos. And the
footage shows an unidentified individual in coveralls with a baseball cap inside the server
room. The fucking man isn't supposed to be in there. Although the he could be a
she. I’m not ruling anything out yet.”
“I want to get this perfectly clear. You think
this wasn’t an accident? A power surge, a malfunction in one of the server
bays, or overload of data, or some other technical issue?”
“Mr. Grey, we are currently gathering the data, sir. And we've scrubbed Barney up, because he wants to check the servers to
overrule any technical problems. He indicated that no alarm was raised with a
technical issue. If it was something technical related to the servers, an error
log would have been created. Barney already logged in and checked and in fact
verified that no such error log was created. He is in there along with one of
my team members and examining the server bays one by one. We are quite sure
that it’s not our equipment, sir,” he says, and with the confirmation, my heart
sinks.
“Fuck!”
“I will have a clearer picture in a few hours,
sir.”
“Has there been a match with the partial print from Charlie Tango?”
“No matches so far, sir. We're still in the process of collecting evidence. It's too early to tell without doing a comparison. That’s one of the
things we’re looking for: Another print. But, it is very plausible that the
perp might be wearing gloves, and may not have left a print this time.
Currently, we’re in the process of collecting all the prints, identify the
employees, question them, check their whereabouts at the time of the incident
and eliminate the suspects. But I’ll add a second step and compare the
backgrounds of those employees who have prints in the server room, see if they
belong there and whether they ought to have access to, check their ties to some
people you may know who may have a grudge against you.”
“Has Barney generated any reports yet?”
“He’s still working on it sir, and I believe
he’s going to send them to you after he's done in the server room which should be momentarily. No error reports have been
generated up until the fire. With the fire, there is an automatic shutdown
process to protect the data, and isolate problem in one location. The data and
the report should be within your hands shortly.”
“Has Andrea arrived at work?”
“Yes sir. I’ll inform her when I hang up and have her call you immediately.”
“Welch, I don’t want any police involvement
until we confirm arson beyond the shadow of any doubt. I want my own
investigator on site.”
“He was in Seattle recently with Charlie Tango, and was leaving the country. I don’t know if I can reach him, sir, but I’ll
try.”
“You’ll do better than that. I want you to find
him immediately. I want the perp caught, yesterday!”
“Yes, sir!”
“I want security increased for my parents, my
brother and sister, 24/7. And I want additional security arranged for my wife.
Find a top notch female security. I want somebody to be able to follow her into
the bathroom stall if she has to! Coordinate with Taylor, keep him on the
loop!”
“Is that all sir?”
“No! I want the servers at the SIP Publishing
to be overhauled, security tightened, have a checkpoint put in. No one saunters
their way into the SIP anymore without my knowledge.”
“Yes, sir.”
“I want you to check the whereabouts of Mrs.
Lincoln, and Leila Williams at the time of the incident, or those who close to
them.”
“ I've already taken the liberty to initiate
that investigation, sir.”
“Good,” I say pausing. “Have Andrea call me,
now!”
“As you wish, sir,” he say and I hang up, still
boiling mad, anxious, and utterly scared... not for myself, but mostly for
Anastasia.
As I scroll through my e-mails from Welch, Ros
and Barney, Andrea calls.
“Good afternoon, Mr. Grey,” she greets in her
usual professional demeanor.
“Andrea, I need your account about the fire...”
“I wasn't here when it occurred, sir. Barney
called me and I came to work as soon as was ready. GEH currently looks like an
orderly chaos. Mr. Welch’s team is scrubbed up and investigating the entrances,
the server room, dusting and printing, another group is interviewing employees,
while some of them examining the surveillance videos.”
“Where’s Ros?”
“Her assistant informed me that she’s on the
floor, helping Mr. Welch oversee the investigation. An alarm also went to her
phone, and she got here as soon as she received the alarm on her phone and was
here right out of bed in her shorts and fuzzy slippers. Her partner just brought a change of
clothes for her.”
There is a knock on my study door. I lift my
head up, and Anastasia enters into the office.
“Andrea, hold please,” I mutter into my
Blackberry in a serious expression. I look up at Anastasia politely expectant.
She stands in the doorway, and squares her shoulders, looking shy at first.
Then giving me a broad smile, she says, “I’m going shopping. I’ll take security
with me.”
“Sure, take one of the twins and Taylor, too,”
I reply. She nods, and stands there waiting for something.
“Anything else?” I ask. I need to get these calls completed, so I can get back to being with her. I want this problem
resolved.
“Can I get you anything?” she asks softly. I
smile at her in response, my heart melting. My baby is always thinking of me.
“No, baby, I’m good. The crew will look after
me,” I reply.
“Okay,” she says in a breathy voice. Then she
saunters towards me, and walking behind the desk, she leans down and plants a
kiss on my lips, both surprising and arousing me.
“Andrea, I’ll call you back,” I mutter into the
Blackberry, and hang up. Putting the phone down on the desk behind me, I pull
Anastasia into an embrace, and give her a kiss she deserves: a passionate, hot
and desirous one, pouring all my love, my concern, my craving for her into the
kiss. When I release her, I’m fully aroused, and ready to fuck. If I didn't have an emergency back in Seattle, and if I didn't know that it wasn’t going to
affect Anastasia at all, I’d abandon the phone calls, and take Anastasia into our
suite and have my way with her. But, this problem has to be resolved.
“You’re distracting me. I need to sort this, so
I can get back to my honeymoon,” I say running my finger down her face and her
chin, and finally tilting her chin up to look at me.
“Okay. I’m sorry,” she replies chagrined.
“Please don’t apologize, Mrs. Grey. I love your
distractions,” I say kissing the corner of her mouth. I want my wife to be
happy, and this is honeymoon. Once I find the fucker who is interrupting our
lives, I will make him regret that he ever tried to harm us.
“Go spend some money,” I say releasing her.
“Will do,” she replies, smirking, and leaves my
study.
I call Andrea back, anxious to resolve this
problem so I can get back to my wife, and our honeymoon. Not ten minutes into
my conversation with Andrea, I hear the sound of the Jet Ski circling the Fair
Lady. Clearly Taylor isn't going to take the Jet Ski, and neither would any of
the crew members. This could only mean that Anastasia is riding it!
“Andrea, I have to call you back!” I say hand
hang up immediately, rushing outside, up the stairs and onto the deck with my
Blackberry in my hand. When I reach the deck, I find my wife circling the yacht
on the Jet Ski! At least she wore a life jacket! My mouth
agape, my heart at my throat I look at her. She spots me on the deck and
letting go of one of the handlebars, she waves at me enthusiastically!
“Put your hand back on!” I shout. But she won’t hear me and keeps waving at me, so I finally manage a stiff wave back at her. She even
makes the security look like idiots who are stuck in the middle of the sea
waiting for her to finish her fun ride.
I dial Taylor’s Blackberry.
“Yes Mr. Grey,” he replies.
“Taylor! What the hell is Mrs. Grey doing on the Jet
Ski?” I ask through gritted teeth.
“Uhm...” he stutters. “Mrs. Grey indicated that
she’s cleared it with you,” he replies in an embarrassed tone.
“Well, she hasn't. She isn't supposed to be on
the Jet Ski if I’m not on it with her! Is that clear?”
“Perfectly clear, sir,” he says.
“Did you show her how to use it? How to apply
the break?”
“Yes, sir I did.”
“I’m holding you solely responsible of bringing
her back in one healthy piece if you value your job!” I shout and hang up. I
run into the control room, and find the captain.
“I need a pair of binoculars,” I say extending
my hand.
“Of course sir,” he says, and gives me the pair
he’s been using. I rush out to the deck again, and watch the Jet Ski reach the
dock, and watch Taylor help her off the Jet Ski and talk with her. Once she’s
fully on land, I dial her Blackberry.
With the binoculars nearly glued to my eyes, I
watch her fish the Blackberry out of her purse Taylor handed back to her, and answers the phone.
“Hi,” comes through her voice, and just with
that one simple greeting, relief floods me.
“Hi,” I reply.
“I’ll come back on the boat. Don’t be mad,” she
says immediately completely surprising me. I was expecting her to argue with
me, and her tone takes me aback. I gasp completely flabbergasted.
Unable to string a coherent sentence, I find
myself saying, “Um...”
“It was fun, though,” she whispers, completely
elated. Do I want to stop her fun? It’s our honeymoon, and I’m stuck here
trying to resolve a problem at work. I sigh.
“Well, far be it for me to curtail your fun,
Mrs. Grey. Just be careful. Please,” I reply with relief.
“I will! Anything you want from town?” she asks
in a cheerful voice.
“Just you, back in one piece.”
“I’ll do my best to comply, Mr. Grey,” she
says.
“I’m glad to hear it, Mrs. Grey.”
“We aim to please,” she responds with a giggle
making me smile in response. One of the best sounds in the world for me is her
giggle. I hear another incoming call, and this time it’s Ros.
“I have another call. Laters, baby,” I say,
hating the fact I have to hang up.
“Laters, Christian,” she replies and I change
the lines.
“Mr. Grey?”
“Ros...”
“I called to update you on the developments,
sir. But, I know you’re on your honeymoon, so I’ll recap what is new, and the
rest shall be e-mailed to you. That way you can evaluate hard copy of the reports,
and see everything in black and white...” she starts, and states what’s new,
and basically, not much.
When I hang up with her, I walk back to the on
board study, and my phone buzzes with a new e-mail.
____________________________________________________________________
From: Anastasia Grey
Subject: Thank you
Date: August 17, 2011
16: 54
To: Christian Grey
For not being too grouchy.
Your loving wife.
Xxx
____________________________________________________________________
I think it was Taylor who had to handle the
brunt of my grouchiness. Another e-mail comes through from Barney this time
with preliminary reports. I glance over everything quickly and then get back to
Anastasia’s message and type a response for her.
____________________________________________________________________
From: Christian Grey
Subject: Trying to stay
calm
Date: August 17, 2011
16:58
To: Anastasia Grey
You’re
welcome.
Come back
in one piece.
This is not
a request.
X
Christian
Grey
CEO & Overprotective Husband, Grey
Enterprises Holdings Inc.
____________________________________________________________________
____________________________________________________________________
I spend most of the afternoon on the phone and e-mail.
It’s been several hours since Anastasia is gone, and since I haven’t seen her.
I think I hear the motorboat arrive. I go over the reports, and initial
interviews of the employees who were questioned. My Blackberry rings.
“Grey,” I answer, without even checking the caller.
“Welch here, sir. I now have confirmation that the
attack was in fact, arson.” Even though I suspected it, I feel my world
collapsing around me. I feel like I’ve been punched.
“Sir?” he asks upon my silence.
"I'm listening," I say curtly.
“All the interviews are completed, every one of the
employees who had the access to the server room are accounted for. There’s only one person without
the access on the video, and that person was never supposed to be there.”
“What else?” I ask through gritted teeth.
“That's all I have for now; I’ll update you as the information becomes available
sir. This is however is all the information we've been able to confirm.”
“I’ll get back to you,” I say and hang up. All of a
sudden I miss my wife. I need to find her, and hold her, and love her. I’m
fucking going out of my mind. What if... I can’t bring the rest of the
thought... What if they get her to get to me? I would rip that person apart,
limb by limb.
I have to find my
wife! I make my way to our cabin. I find her taping a gift package. I gaze at
her for a long moment. Remind myself that she’s here, in our cabin; close
enough for me to touch her. She’s here... She’s here... She’s here...
Breathe...
“You were gone some time,” I say in a soft voice. Anastasia is startled upon
hearing my voice. When she looks at me, I can see that she’s
excited about something. Her demeanor takes my mind off the day’s events’
momentarily. My eyes are on her with full intensity.
“Everything in control at your office?” she asks
tentatively.
“More or less,” I reply, frowning with annoyance that
this is happening right on our honeymoon.
“I did a little bit of shopping,” she murmurs.
“What did you buy?” I ask.
“This,” she says putting her foot on the bed, showing off
her new anklet.
“Very nice,” I say, walking over to her, and stroke the
little bells dangling down from the anklet. I notice the light red mark on her
ankle, and run my fingers along it. A shiver runs through her body.
“And this,” she says holding out a box to me.
“For me?” I ask surprised. She bought me a gift. She nods
shyly. I take the box out of her hands and shake it. I grin as wide as
possible. My baby thought of me. It makes me feel cherished. I sit beside her
on the bed, grasp Anastasia’s chin and kiss her.
“Thank you,” I say, delighted.
“You haven’t opened it yet.”
“I’ll love it, whatever it is,” I tell her gazing down at
her, with eyes glowing in adoration. “I don’t get many presents.”
“It’s hard to buy you things. You have everything, Mr.
Grey.”
“I have you,” I say. She’s my most valued, cherished,
loved and adored present.
I immediately rip the paper wrapping, and reveal the box.
It’s a camera.
“A Nikon?” I ask with a puzzled expression. Why would she
want me to have a professional grade camera?
“I know you have your compact digital camera but this is
for ... umh... portraits and the like. It comes with two lenses,” she gushes in
one breath.
Why a camera though? I blink, completely confused. I
don’t understand the meaning of this particular gift.
“Today in the gallery you liked the Florence D’elle
photographs. And I remember what you said in the Louvre. And of course, there
were those other pictures,” she says swallowing, clearly referring to the
images of the subs I've taken. Fuck! I stop breathing. My eyes widen. She
wants me to take pictures of her. Erotic pictures! I can’t do that to her!
She’s my wife. That would be objectifying her, and I can’t... I won’t... I
can’t do it.
“I thought you might, umh... like to take pictures of ...
me.”
Shit!
“Pictures. Of you?” I ask gaping at her. Camera box
forgotten on my lap. I don’t know what to say. I can’t ever put my wife in that
position. Those images were not for pleasure.
She nods in response; she’s anxious and nervous. She
gazes at me with her pupils dilated. I don’t know what to say. This is the
woman I love. This is my wife. I can’t take such pictures of her without having
it remind me of why I have taken such images before. She’s better than that...
I swallow and look down at the camera, completely bewildered. Absently I find my
fingers tracing the lines of the camera picture on the box. I need to know why
she wants me to do this. Is it because she thinks I might prefer the subs? Is
it because she thinks I want her to be that way?
“Why do you think I want this?” I ask, my mind preoccupied.
“Don’t you?” she asks, worried.
I take a deep shaky breath.
“For me, pictures like those have usually been an
insurance policy, Ana. I know I've objectified women for so long,” I say. I
don’t want my wife to ever think I would objectify her.
“And you think taking pictures of me is...uhm,
objectifying me?” she asks, her face going white as a ghost.
I’m torn. I don’t know exactly why she wants me to have
this, but the meaning of those pictures hold for me isn't something I would
associate my wife, the love of my life with. I scrunch up my eyes.
“I’m so confused,” I say in a whisper. I close my eyes.
If I take such images of Ana, where would it take us? What would it say about
me as her husband? I know the submissive position isn’t something Anastasia
wants to be in, and that’s what those images represented. When I open my eyes
again, I’m wary, and raw emotions torment me inside.
“Why do you say that?” she whispers with panic in her
voice.
Why? Because she will hate it! She may just want to do it,
because in her mind she isn’t good enough for me, or that she thinks I want
that life from her. But in reality what she doesn’t like, I don’t want. I don’t
want her to do something for me if it’s not what she wants. Those things might
make her run away from me, and I will never, ever take that chance. Not with
her! Even the punishment fuck I delivered losing control left her marked all
over her body.
I shrug in response to her question, and can’t help but
gaze down at the cuff marks on her wrist underneath the bracelet I bought for
her.
“Christian, these don’t matter!” she says holding up her
wrist. The bracelet slides down revealing the now fading red welt, and the
sight of it stabs me once more inside.
“You gave me a safe word. Shit! Yesterday was fun!” she
emphasizes. “I enjoyed it. Stop brooding about it. I like rough sex, I’ve told
you that before,” she says blushing scarlet.
I gaze at her face, her expression, her eyes,
scrutinizing her meaning. Does she mean it? Or is she just trying to soothe my
ego. I don’t give any of my emotions away.
“Is this about the fire? Do you think it’s connected somehow to Charlie
Tango? Is this why you’re worried? Talk to me, Christian! Please!” she begs.
Tornadoes are brewing inside me. Emotional storms battering
my shores, my sanity. Yes! I’m fucking afraid that someone might get to my
wife, hurt her, because they want to hurt me... I’m scared that I would be the
one to hurt her. I did hurt her, only yesterday! And I have objectified women.
I don’t want my wife to be one of them. I’m fucking scared! I’m a man used to
having control in everything, and not having any control over these events is
scaring the hell out of me. I’m worried to my bones about her! I love her so
much, I don’t know what I would do if anyone were to hurt her!
“Don’t over-think this Christian,” she scolds me in a
quiet tone. She reaches over my lap, and taking the box, she opens it. I watch
her with passive eyes. She holds it in her hands, and I’m mesmerized by her
simple motions. She removes the lens cap, and points the camera at me. She
presses the button, and keeps it pressed. I can hear the shutter capture my
image in rapid succession. She takes at least ten pictures of my alarmed
expression.
“I’ll objectify you then,” she murmurs, pressing the
shutter again. She keeps taking my pictures until a twitch of a smile crawls up
on my lips. I try to hold the smile back, but she continues to take my
pictures. I finally decide to pose for her, and I think a pout would be
appropriate for a playful mood. She takes my picture, and giggles. Her giggle
lifts up my mood.
“I thought it was my present, Mrs. Grey,” I mutter in a
sulky tone, teasing her.
“Well, as it happens Mr. Grey, this gift was supposed to
be fun. But apparently it’s a symbol of women’s oppression for you,” she says
snapping her pictures away. She moves closer, and tries to capture an image of
my face in extreme close up.
“You want to be oppressed?” I murmur, teasing her.
“No. Not oppressed,” she murmurs back at me, continuing
to snap pictures.
“I could oppress you big time, Mrs. Grey,” I threaten her
like a predator in a husky voice.
“I know you can, Mr. Grey. And you do, frequently.”
Oh, shit! I do! My face falls. What am I doing wrong with
my wife? Am I a shitty husband? Anastasia lowers the camera, and just stares at
me, exasperated.
“What’s wrong, Christian?” She says sounding exacerbated.
I shake my head, indicating nothing. She hold the camera, aligning the view
finder with her eye, and starts snapping pictures away again.
“Tell me,” she says insistently.
“Nothing,” I reply, but this time, I sweep off the camera
box off the bed onto the floor with one move. I grab my wife and push her down
onto the bed. I sit astride her, in my favorite riding position.
“Hey!” she exclaims, and continues to take more pictures
of me. I grab the camera by the lens, taking it away from Anastasia, and then
turning it around, I start taking her pictures. I press the shutter down, and
take successive countless number of pictures of her.
“So, you want me to take pictures of you, Mrs. Grey?” I ask in an amused tone.
“Well, for a start, baby, I think you should be laughing,”
I say and tickle my wife under her ribs ruthlessly. She squeals and giggles
under me. She tries to grasp my wrist in a fruitless effort to stop me. I love
it when she fights with me. It’s one of my fantasies. When she squirms under
me, when she fights back, it completely turns me on! My grin gets wider, and I
renew my efforts in tickling her while snapping away her pictures.
“No! Stop!” she screams.
“Are you kidding?” I growl. I put the camera next to us
on the bed, so I can utilize both my hands in tickling her.
“Christian!” she splutters and gasps her laughing
protest. I’ve never tickled my wife before, and it is so much fun to have her under me like
this, giggling, laughing, fighting back, just happy. She’s trying to push both
my hands away, but I’m unyielding. I grin down at my wife, and completely enjoy
her joyous torment.
“Christian, stop!” she pleads, and I suddenly stop. I
grab both her hands, and hold them down on either side of her head and just
loom over her. She’s panting hard, breathless, and the way she looks right now,
all flushed, and mussed up and happy does something to me. I’m aroused beyond
belief. My breathing is mirroring hers. I love this woman! I absolutely adore her! Hell, I want to worship her with my body!
“You. Are. So. Beautiful,” enunciate in a breathless
tone.
She stares up at me. I am unable to help but, feel drawn
to her. I want to lose myself in my wife. I want to make love to her. I lean
down and closing my eyes, I kiss her, completely beguiled. I release her hands,
and my fingers curl around her head and my fingers are woven into her hair. As
I hold her gently in place, I start kissing her sweetly, and tenderly. I kiss
long and devoutly and cherishing her. But she moves her body to demand more of me; her lips, and mouth responds to my kiss, completely undoing me. Our kiss turns
into a carnal, deep and devouring one. My tongue dips into her mouth, taking,
seeking, capturing, invading, and completely possessing her.
I inhale sharply and groan. She is my undoing. She alters
me in such a way that I’m completely hers.
“Oh, what you do to me,” I groan, my feeling are raw, and carnal. I want to affirm that she’s mine, that I’m hers. I quickly move, lie on top of her, pressing her into the mattress, and feeling her all the way, and making her feel me, feel my cock pressing into her sex. Letting her know how much I desire her. As I cup her chin with one hand, my other hand brushes over her breast, her waist, her hip, her body, and her buttocks. I kiss her again carnally, wanton, and push my leg between hers, and I raise her knee. The full length of my erection is pushing to get out, straining against my pants, and onto her sex. The way she gasps and moans into my mouth, I swallow her voice, drinking it in, feeding my own hunger for her. The craving I feel for her is overwhelming. I need her more than my next breath right now. It’s not just a want. It’s a need for her. I can’t live without her, without being inside her. This is how I communicate with her. This is how I express my love, my worries, my desires, my fears, my anger, my passion, and all my emotions to her. This is me, Christian Grey, in the raw.
“Oh, what you do to me,” I groan, my feeling are raw, and carnal. I want to affirm that she’s mine, that I’m hers. I quickly move, lie on top of her, pressing her into the mattress, and feeling her all the way, and making her feel me, feel my cock pressing into her sex. Letting her know how much I desire her. As I cup her chin with one hand, my other hand brushes over her breast, her waist, her hip, her body, and her buttocks. I kiss her again carnally, wanton, and push my leg between hers, and I raise her knee. The full length of my erection is pushing to get out, straining against my pants, and onto her sex. The way she gasps and moans into my mouth, I swallow her voice, drinking it in, feeding my own hunger for her. The craving I feel for her is overwhelming. I need her more than my next breath right now. It’s not just a want. It’s a need for her. I can’t live without her, without being inside her. This is how I communicate with her. This is how I express my love, my worries, my desires, my fears, my anger, my passion, and all my emotions to her. This is me, Christian Grey, in the raw.
Anastasia kisses me with renewed abandon. Her hands fist
into my hair, pulling, holding onto my hair tightly.
In an instant, I stop, stand up, and pull her off the
bed, making her stand before me, completely dazed. I undo the button of her
shorts, and kneel quickly, yanking them down along with her panties. And before
she can inhale her next breath, I toss her back onto the bed, and unbuttoning
my fly, I sink my cock into her sex without any preamble. If I don’t, I will
lose myself. She cries out with the full feeling, but I can’t stop. My breath
hisses out of my clenched teeth.
I plunge my cock in and out of her repeatedly, and a “yesss!”
hisses out of my lips close to her ears. I hold still, my cock buried deep
inside her, marking her as mine, feeling her, connecting with her in the most
elemental way. I savor the feeling for a moment, then swivel my hips once, and
plunge into her deeper, making my woman groan.
“I need you,” I growl; my voice is husky, and low. But it’s
also my plea to her; I simply can’t live without her. I graze my teeth over her
jaw, nipping and sucking along the way. Then I start kissing her again, harder
this time. Anastasia wraps her legs around my ass, cradling me, and pulling me
toward her, holding me hard, grinding into me, wanting me to give all I can,
and take whatever I can. The feeling of her submission to my body is heady. It
takes over my mind, and body and I start moving in a primal, carnal, desperate,
insane, possessive, and a maddening rhythm.
I push deeper, and farther into her, but what I seek is
more than a release for our bodies, but also our fears, emotions, love,
desires, and connecting our souls in an inseparable way. I feel Anastasia’s
muscles clenching inside, wrapping around my cock, milking and pulling, driving
further into her. Our breathing is harsh, and forced, and deep and labored.
Anastasia groans loudly, panting, she’s reaching higher,
further, overwhelmingly carnal moaning escapes her lips, and she is about to
come.
“Come with me, Ana,” I gas, and rear up on her, pushing
her over the precipice, and she closes her eyes, ready to orgasm.
“Open your eyes,” I order. “I need to see you,” I plea in
an implacable, urgent voice. Her eyes open, connect with mine. My eyes, darken,
and dilate. Seeing me desiring her from the depths of my soul, driving her with
my cock pushes her over her peak, and she screams her release as her orgasm rolls in big,
long waves.
“Oh, Ana,” I cry out, and climax, driving into her again
and again, and pouring everything I have in thick spurts into my woman; then
still and collapse onto her. My eyes are closed, and my arms wrapped around
her, I cling tightly to my wife. She kisses my chest through my shirt. I can
feel her gaze on me, even though my eyes are closed.
I love her, and I am scared out of my wits that someone
is out there who might be able to harm her.
“Tell me, Christian, what’s wrong?” she asks in a soft,
anxious voice. I say nothing. How can I voice my fears? How can I word how deep
my love for her is, and how great the abyss that holds my fears? I can’t voice
them. I’m afraid that if I say them out loud, they might come true. I can’t
ever take that risk. Torture and agony washes over me anew. I just hold her in
my arms tightly, and inhale her scent, keeping my cock in her, trying to feel
her every way I can. She’s my safe place. She’s home. She’s everything. She’s
my sun. She’s my life.
Christina Perri - Arms
****❦ ♡ ❧*****
86 comments:
Another awesome chapter! Thank you so much for doing this :)
What can I say? You did it again! Well worth the wait!! Thanks!!!!
It was well worth the waiting, thank you for another amazing chapter.
Thanks for putting in such a big effort after such a busy week.
Don't burn yourself out and make sure you are getting enough rest.
Another fantastic chapter.
Thanks again
Theresa (Queensland)(AUS)
Wow.....That was AMAZING!!! I feel the fear that Christian has about the fire, and his fears about someone harming his family and Ana...I just loved it!!! THANKS MY DEAR EMINE!!! You are brilliant! Get some rest, cause God knows you deserve a break! I hope you feel better soon after a long night of sleep
What a surprise coming home from work to see this new chapter, Amazing and Awesome as usual Emine! Get some rest and we your faithful readers will patiently wait for the next chapter, I am squealing with delight, it's getting so good! Talk to you twitter, Mary:)
What a surprise coming home from work to see this new chapter, Amazing and Awesome as usual Emine! Get some rest and we your faithful readers will patiently wait for the next chapter, I am squealing with delight, it's getting so good! Talk to you twitter, Mary:)
What a surprise coming home from work to see this new chapter, Amazing and Awesome as usual Emine! Get some rest and we your faithful readers will patiently wait for the next chapter, I am squealing with delight, it's getting so good! Talk to you twitter, Mary:)
What a surprise seeing a new chapter posted. As usual it was Brilliant! I am squealing with delight, it is getting so good:) Get some rest and have a great night:) Mary
Awesome chapter again
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!! Amazing chapter:) Please take care of yourself Emine. As always you made my day! Thanks again.
Love,
Norma Wellington
Wow another great chapter!! I really am glad you find the time and the energy to write for us! I hope all is well with your family, with you and with all of the others that come here to read your beautiful words! I can't wait to see were this going because this is my favorite part of the 3 books. Have a great nights sleep and a wonderful day tomorrow!
Amazing Chapter as always!
Thanks for the new chapter. Hope you have a good rest. :)
this was definitely worth the wait. Enjoyed it. now the waiting for next chapter begines :-)
By the way Emine your blog will get me fire *LOL*, i am at the offices acting so busy while reading chapter XIII, i have waited for to long to wait again for 8 hours to read when i get home. too good i worked my butt off last night to cover most of today's work. You are a grt writter.
Another brilliant chapter, love your writing
Thank you! Outstanding as always...
Thank you so much for this chapter in the ongoing romance of Ana and Christian. I read some last night and the rest this morning before work to make it last!! LOL I hope you are resting. You deserve it. Laters, Carol
<3 favoloso mi fai innamorare sempre di piu... Gianna
Beautiful chapter sweetie ... just beautiful <3
Miss you so much!! Hope you're okay.
Love you!
Awesome chapter as usual. Keep up the good work!
Morning Emine :) I hope you got some much needed rest yesterday!!
My back is out and I tell ya an update is better then any pain pill LOL!! I love having something great to read while stuck in the house.
This was a great update. I love how you are showing Christian's inner struggle with his new life. You've matched it up so well with how Ana was written in the book making it an even better read.
I do think you're showing Christian learning to blend who he was and who he wants to be for Ana and himself. It's a process and I look forward to seeing as you write the rest of this. I have all these moments that I can't wait for you to write... and I'm glad I have them to look forward to.
As always thanks for the visuals that you include in the updates. Now off to read this one more time just in case I missed something from reading it so fast trying.
Have a wonderful (restful) day and looking forward to the next one!!
-Vee
Just wonderful. Christian with his insecurities and fear for Ana is such a heart tugger. And is there a possibility of Alex Pella coming to investigate the arson? Alex & Christian in the same room. Completely. Totally. Yum. Please?
Thank you for another wonderful chapter. Please take care of yourself.
Hi Eminie,
Thanks for another wonderful chapter. Please take care of yourself and get adequate rest.
This chapter was totally awsome! You could feel Christian's love and his fear for Ana's safety. Things are getting excited as more action will come into play.
~hugs from~
waiting for more in the Caribbean
Another Amazing Chapter. Canoot wait for the next.....
You have made my day!!!! Perfection once again. I have appreciate your dedication and look forward to the next chapter.
Thank you so much for another awesome chapter! I laughed a loud with Christian's reaction to Ana on the jet ski.
Can't wait for the next chapter.
Thanks again.
Thanks you verry Much for this chapter
I hope you Will get beter and take you rest
and i love your chapters so Much i can't whait until the next one
Loges and Hug's from Holland
Eminie,
I just discovered this blog a few weeks ago and I am completely in love with it! You are doing an amazing job at writing Christian's POV. Can't wait for the next chapter.
Emine,
What a fabulous chapter! I loved seeing this from Christian's view!!
I hate that this particular part hit a chord with you. I can't think of what it could be, but if you need to vent, you know where to find me!
Love & Laters,
Jennifer
That was fabulous, as always. I love all the detail you put into the writing. The pictures of the scenery are great visuals. I still hope you can somehow incorporate Ana and Kate's "talk" in the story. Alex and Christian together are awesome. Can't wait to read how their next meeting plays out. Take care.
Very nice, you did it again worth the wait. Take care of your self....
I so enjoyed how much christian loves anna!!! How he cant live without her!! The feeling of his love is so overwelming!! Thank u for another great chapter!
Great chapter Emine! I really loved it! Hope all has been well. I look forward to the next one. Take care of yourself and I hope you have a great week :)
xo
This is the best birthday gift emine! I was waiting for this update. Thanks thanks!
Ola, meu nome é Arethuza e sou do Brasil.
Quando terminei de ler a trilogia fiquei com muitas duvidas com o que poderia ter acontecido em alguns trechos dos livros. Ao ler seu blog essas duvidas acabaram. Você teve o cuidado de dar uma possível respostas a varias situações PARABÉNS!!
Aguardo ansiosa pelo restante do livro!
Happy Birthday Karen!
This song is for you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYJPIZ-C-9c
Bem-vindo Arethuza! Estou feliz que você gosta do meu blog. Por favor, visite a qualquer hora!
Audrey-email me. Your assessment was right.
Thank you Jessica, Theresa, Rachel, Mary, Norma, NMN, Krystal, Danisa, Carol, Ashley, Gianna, Rach, mzthang, cynthia, Beverly, Vee, Sheila, Anonymousx6, Stacie, gezinvandorp, Jennifer, Evelyn, snowy, and Keisha! Your love and support always mean a lot to me!
Mzthang-how's your dad coming along? Better? How have you been holding up?
Jennifer-love my muse! I might have to post some of the new images on FB in the Pella Series site. Miss talking to you!
Gezinvandorp-How's Holland at this time of the year? 2 years ago, I was going come over for a Tiesto and Armin Van Buren concert with my hubby, but I had the worst flu of my life, so he had to go w/out me. We were going with another couple. Maybe next year. I got to see Tiesto when he came to town here, but, I've missed Amsterdam and Utrecht.
Anonymous-Alex and CG will come together in a chapter for the fire investigation-possibly as early as next chapter, I'm not sure yet.
BTW, I find images useful. For example, the Florence D'elle photos. I had not given any thought about them until I saw the pictures. The ones I put are the most docile pictures she's taken. I want to make it tangent, like reading CG's diary :)
Someone was asking me if I could post on FB when a new chapter is up. I can do that. One of the fans who became a great friend, Helene, has a FB site for me:
https://www.facebook.com/50ShadesFromEminesChristiansPointOfView
You can find me on FB as well-I'm easy to find.
I may also be able to post on The Pella Series FB page when there's a blog update:
https://www.facebook.com/ThePellaSeries
Ok, I'm off to writing a little, and then sorting receipts and start working on my taxes.
Hi Emine, It's been a long time between chapters, but as usual, it was well worth it. This was another fantastic chapter. Loved it to bits. Thanks so much for your writing. I look forward to each chapter.
Hi Emine a fantasic chapter again,I look forward to reading the next chapter every week,And as much as i love my 3 children i need my 5 minutes and your writing helps me escape for a while,esecially when my girls are arguing.already waiting and looking forward to the next chapter.Also i can't find your new christian facebook page.
Hi Gemma! Here's the link for the FB page Helene created:
http://www.facebook.com/50ShadesFromEminesChristiansPointOfView
Thank you all for reading! <3
Absolutely love how you can feel how much Christian loves Ana. Thank you for writing for us. Another awesome chapter!
As always you have out done yourself. Love the way you really brought out Christian's struggle with his old ways and his new life. When I read your work, you truly bring this story and the Pella story to life for me, thank you!
Looking forward to your update. Hope you have been able to find some down time. Chat soon and take care :-)
Beautiful (sighing happily) Thanks again for another great chapter.
Omg I love you lol. You are amazing and has me picturing every chapter in my mind. I'm hoping you give us ladies a wonderful Valentines Day gift with the next chapter. I'm becoming a Christan addict. XOXO from Racquel in Chicago I'm going to add you on FB
Wonderful chapter Emine!!! Thank you, once again, for sharing your precious time & creative talent with us & the rest of the world! It is just so great to read Christian's inner thoughts & feelings with everything that happened in this chapter. It just makes everything clearer & more interesting. My favorite is anticipating his reaction when Ana took the jetski-gotta love Ana's rebel side & Christian's control freakery! Always looking forward to your next post...
Lots of love & take care always,
Jenny
Hi Emine,
I love your retelling of Christian and Ana's story and I have just discovered your pella series and am just as eager to read more of that series!
Keep writing you are my sanity
Mel
Hi Emine I love reading your retelling of Christian and Ana's story and I have recently become addicted to your pella series as well...I can't wait for the next chapter of it too!
Keep writing you are my sanity
Mel
Hi Emine,
My dad is out of the hospital and is getting stronger each day. Thanks for asking.
As for me I am now trying to concentrate on getting back into my exercise rhythm and some 'me' time.
~hugs~
Another great chapter.. Keep up the good work you do... Love reading the books... Look forward to next chapter... Nina
Another awesome chapter! You are an amazing writer! Thank you!!!
Emine, As usual this chapter was superb! Seeing Christian struggle within himself was wonderful. A great insight to the old vs new Christian. I know you are so busy with your family and work, yet you still manage to continue this story for us. Thank you so much! I hope you realize how much you are loved and appreciated by all of us! Cathy from Texas
Can it get any hotter answer it did it did! Emine, girl as I read I could have well lets not go there. HOT!
I found your blog several months ago and have been following/checking-in religously. I have loved every minute of reading both the books (which I've done 4x) as well as this blog! In fact, I just reread the entire blog for the 2nd time. LOL I just love the romance and dedication of these two trying to figure each other out! The hot and steamy sex doesn't hurt either, of course! I look forward to your next chapters, but I am not looking forward to you finishing the last book! Or, perhaps you'll continue even after the books finishes. I don't know your plan, but I do want you to know how much I've loved the time and energy you dedicate to this blog. Please don't stop!
great chapter as usual!!!!
Elisa
Thank you for doing this, it's definitely worth waiting for! Can't wait for the next chapter!
As usual absolutely fantastic!
Keep well.
As always, another fantastic piece of writing.
do you have an ETA yet for next post?
Emine,
I can't say enuf about your writing and you already know I'm a huge fan! Keep it coming and thanks again for taking the time to keep this site and chapters coming. I love your music choice. Looking forward to many many more Pella series as well. Take care.
This was a very sweet chapter! I loved all the descriptions about the village in France; I would love to go there! I like those little places, kind of hidden, and were all the persons live almost like they still live in another time :)
The pictures were beautiful Eminé, and they help a lot to "see" everything better in my mind :)
I love all the moments between Christian and Ana but as I've said in the previous chapter too, I'm just really anxious to the end of this honeymoon, I want them back :p
I hope everything is ok with you my dear :)
Love,
Catarina*
Eminent.. I have been reading this blog for a while, but have been too shy to comment. Love your writing, and I am always looking forward to the next chapter. I do have one question .. What ever happened to the second diamond ring that CG got for Ana that he had the apple and inscription put inside the band,The one with the twin story to the spoonmaker diamond? Did I miss a part and not realize it? Thank you for giving us this blog to continue our crush on CG and Ana!
Felicia L.
Hi Felicia! I'm so glad you commented. Thank you! She still has that diamond. We've discussed it here a while back (not on this chapter). That diamond is aptly named: A bouquet of light. That's the ring that had the inscription "My first, my last, my forever" and the apple image carved in it-that's the wedding ring. The engagement ring is a little bigger. That's what he put on her finger on the wedding day. We were discussing it because a lot of time people just assume "the wedding rings" are just bands. But, the way I was raised the engagement ring goes on the right finger and the wedding ring (or rings) go to the left one.
So, in short she has the rings. I just had so much to cover in topics and honeymoon, I haven't had the chance to mention it again, but may come a time that it may come up in a different chapter.
This chapter (13) which I'd like to post later tomorrow is the end of the honeymoon and they'll be back in Seattle.
I realized that I haven't commented here as I've been so busy (then again, when am I not busy?) Honestly I wasn't purposefully neglecting you. Slowly getting back on track as far as writing is concerned.
Those of you who are new to the blog but just caught up, welcome!
Ani-I've missed you! Thank you for saying hello.. ❤
Catarina❤, Kaili❤, Holly❤, Penny❤, Rachel❤, Cynthia❤, Stacie❤, gezinvandorp❤, Jennifer❤, Evelyn❤, Snowy❤, Angela❤, Catherine❤, Nina❤, Elisa❤, Prince50❤ (could you send me some of your beautiful music choices - you're better at it than I am. I'm compiling some for 50 and Alex), Mel❤, Nina❤, EPFlaig❤, Jenny❤, Cathy❤ - thank you! You make it special and worthwhile. Big hugs!
Hope you are all well! Those of you who are in the snowed in areas, stay safe!
Oi Eminé estou adorando seu Blog,Todo dia visito para ver o 'Christian and Anastasia Fanfiction' Estou amando muito,você é uma ótima escritora,Parabéns! Aguardo ansiosa pelos próximos capítulos.
Também estou amando ler The Pella!
Beijos e mais Beijos :D
Olá Jaqueline!
Obrigado por sua bela mensagem. Eu tento fazer um bom trabalho. Vou postar o capítulo 50 Tons novo amanhã. Vou postar o capítulo Pella na quinta-feira. Será em www.thepellaseries.com. Espero que você goste de ambos.
Nota: Desculpas para meu Português pobre.
abraços e beijos!
Emine,
Have missed you, lady! Can't wait for more 50! Now, its about to get good!!
Hope all is well with you! If you need anything, just holla! :)
Love & Laters,
Jennifer
Hello Emine...I am so sorry for not commenting in a while. I am avidly following your chapters on both the Pella Series and A Walk in the Clouds as soon as they are posted. However, I read them on my IPhone and I find it difficult to post comments from it. I hide my laptop & IPAD from my technology addicted 2yo..in an attempt to make him play with all the TOYS I BOUGHT HIM!! Hence, I don't even use the laptop or the Ipad as much! :) Great chapters and I love your descriptions from C&A's honeymoon. I feel like I am transported to the exact places they are at by reading your words. Keep up the good work and hope you are well! Lots of love, Jaimini xx
Emine: I really love this blog more than the original series. You are a very gifted writer. The insight into CG's mind is amazing. Thank you so much for the further detail on the rings -- I too was confused about that. I can't wait for your posts. I also love the Alex Pella series and anxiously await your publication. Please make sure you post the information for that. Might you please consider another post to that series as well? Looking forward to tomorrow's post!!
Sabina (NJ)
Jennifer my friend :) I'm well. And I hope you aren't working too hard. This week will be busy writing, but I'll drop you a line later in the week! ♥ ❤
Hey Jaimini!
I've missed you! How have you been? Hope you and the family are doing well. I know all too well about technology savvy kids. I have the same at home. I, who studied computer science can't write the programs my son can in VB ♥ ❤
Emine,
Once again, outstanding. How I love reading your Christians POVu. Hope all good in your world.
Yours Smiling
Kathy x (Australia)
Emine, you have captivated me once again with a mind-blowing chapter. You are a truly gifted writer, and I thank you for sharing your gift. This and the Paella series are so addictive! Continued blessings be upon you.
Marnay - New Orleans,Louisiana
i can't wait for the next chapter. i'll be dreaming about it tonight and hopefully it'll be here by tomorrow morning. it'll be my read on my way to work. i must say the time zone is killing me coz i am just too ahead.
Hi Emine,
Do you have a a posting time yet?
Love
S from India
I havent commented in awhile but I always feel like I have received a present when you post a new chapter in both series. Thank you so much as I know it is hard work to bring the images to life through words.I hope you are well and keep giving us these treasures to enjoy.They truly transport me to another time and place. Peace.
Hi everyone!
I hadn't realized that the new chapter turned out to be nearly 40 pages. It kept going and going and going... because I couldn't wrap it up. So, hang in there. I'm editing. It should be posted in an hour or two at the latest.
xxx
Hi Emine. I am completely glued to my computer reading this. I'm a little confused on this chapter though. It talks about the fire being at the Grey house? I thought it was at GEH. Help!!! P.S. Can't wait to dig into the next chapter! :-)
Hi Sandra,
GEH and the Grey House is one and the same. That's how it was mentioned in the book. I would prefer GEH but I have some die hard readers who likes to stick to the original story as close as possible.
But you are right, it's GEH which is also referred as The Grey House (Christian's office building).
Oh, I must have missed that detail the first 2 times I read the series. Actually, I don't have the books but rather listen to it on my Ipod so I wonder if that's how I missed it. I guess I will have to listen to it a 3rd time now! :-)
I've read the books countless times - so much so that I can give a lecture on the book, teach a college course, do character studies; but it still amazes me to discover something new every time I read it.
So, it's very possible you've missed it, but it's okay. We're doing this together. You will find something that are not in the original books where things were just not mentioned, or not delved in. I took liberties in those parts and wrote what I felt Christian would do.
But the "Grey House" isn't one of them.
Eminé, I finally had time to start catching up again! LOVED it! I'm still falling more in love with CG. The way you capture him and his emotions is amazing!! I def feel like we're reading his diary. On to the next chapter for me!!
Also, is that the correct Fb page? My friend and i went there and it was more like a Matt Bomer fan Page. I didn't see anything about your blog so I want to make sure it was the right one
Hi Gedi!
It's created and run by Helene, one of the fans. She creates images with Matt Bomer as CG, using quotes from the various chapters I've written. As you know, I'm not partial to any one actor; I'm only partial to Christian Grey. It's a fan made site (it started on Instagram then spilled into FB) - I didn't create it.
But if you go through image files you'll find certain scenes recreated with my quotes and her favorite actors.
when book 3 will be available in Portuguese
when book 3 will be available in Portuguese
thanks,
calzinha
Really awesome chapter! Maybe the best ever in giving us the world according to the mind of Christian. You make me love him and feel him much better than in the books. How I wish the books had not been only from one POV! THis is so much richer because we have both sides!
I love watching him work out the difference between the only way he's ever known, and the way he wants to treat his wife; I love seeing him realize that physical union is the only way he knows for sure to feel that she's connected to him and loves him.
Here are fave parts:
I can’t get rid of this shitty feeling. I have marked Anastasia. I hurt her. I have marked my subs before; in fact I enjoyed doing that. It showed my domination over them: That I was the master, and they were to submit to me. Their misbehavior was not tolerated and dealt with swiftly. I punished them with various methods. But Anastasia isn't my sub. She’s my wife! I love her, and the thought of marking her like this is abhorrent to me, especially knowing that it displeases her.
* * * * *
Our kiss turns into a carnal, deep and devouring one. My tongue dips into her mouth, taking, seeking, capturing, invading, and completely possessing her.
I inhale sharply and groan. She is my undoing. She alters me in such a way that I’m completely hers.
* * * * *
I can’t live without her, without being inside her. This is how I communicate with her. This is how I express my love, my worries, my desires, my fears, my anger, my passion, and all my emotions to her. This is me, Christian Grey, in the raw.
* * * * *
I push deeper, and farther into her, but what I seek is more than a release for our bodies, but also our fears, emotions, love, desires, and connecting our souls in an inseparable way.
“Come with me, Ana,”...
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