MY FAIR LADY
CHAPTER
XII
“Monte Carlo is
amazing!” Anastasia gushes. I look up from the book I’m reading smiling at her.
She’s trying to get my attention.
“What are you
reading?” she asks.
“Watching the
Clock: Economic Predictions,” I say. “It’s a book predicting the collapse of
the Western banking System.”
“Sounds like a
page turner,” she says as her eyes greedily skim over my shirtless torso, and
my cutoff jeans lying in the sun lounger next to hers. The Fair Lady is
anchored in the harbor, and we’re basking under the sun at the Beach Plaza
Monte Carlo in Monaco. I grin at her response.
“Well, I’m going
to tan a little Mr. Grey since you seem to like my sun kissed skin,” she says
plugging her ear-buds of her iPod into her ears. I turn back to my book for
another hour, and Anastasia dozes off in the sun lounger listening to what she
calls “Christian Grey mix-tape”; the
mix I created for her after she broke up with me I painfully remember. Suddenly
I feel a yearning towards my wife. I put my book down, lean in and whisper into
her ear.
“You’ll burn,”
and she’s startled from her nap.
“Only for you,
Mr. Grey,” she murmurs smiling sweetly. The sun is lower now and we are no
longer in the shade. I pull her sun lounger swiftly and get her under the
protection of the parasol.
“Out of the
Mediterranean sun, Mrs. Grey,” I say.
“Thank you for
your altruism, Mr. Grey,” she replies.
“My pleasure,
Mrs. Grey, and I’m not being altruistic at all. If you burn, I won’t be able to
touch you,” I say raising my eyebrows. Not being able to touch my wife on our
honeymoon would be a torture for me. “But I suspect you know that and you’re
laughing at me.”
“Would I?” she
asks innocently.
“Yes you would
and you do. Often. It’s one of the many things I love about you, Mrs. Grey,” I
say leaning down and kissing my wife, and playfully bite her lower lip.
“I was hoping
you’d rub me down with more sunscreen,” she says against my lips.
“Mrs. Grey, it’s
a dirty job... but that’s an offer I can’t refuse. Sit up,” I order in a husky
voice. She sits up, and I slowly apply the sunscreen on her back and front. I
can’t take my eyes or my hands off my wife.
“You really are
very lovely, Anastasia. I’m a lucky man,” I murmur my appreciation of her body
as I coat her breasts with my fingers with sun tan lotion, feeling the
perkiness of her twin peaks.
“Yes, you are,
Mr. Grey,” she whispers coyly, gazing at me through her long lashes.
“Modesty becomes
you, Mrs. Grey, Turn over. I want to do your back,” I order. She rolls over
smiling, and I undo the strap of her bikini to rub lotion to her beautiful
backside.
“How would you
feel if I went topless, like the other women on the beach?” she asks, and
momentarily my fingers stop rubbing.
“Displeased,”
I reply, though ‘displeased’ would be the least of what I feel. I don’t want anyone
getting a glimpse of my wife naked. “I’m not very happy about you wearing so
little right now,” I add, and lean down to her ear and whisper, “So, don’t push
your luck, baby.”
“Is that a
challenge, Mr. Grey?” she asks. Leave it to Anastasia to take it as such.
“No. It’s a
statement of fact, Mrs. Grey,” I reply. She sighs and shakes her head. Yes, I
know I’m a possessive control freak, an insanely jealous husband but also madly
in love with my wife! Who could blame me? It would drive me crazy if I saw
other men ogling my wife in a naked state. I can barely handle it as it is. I
finish rubbing the lotion all over her body, and slap her firm buttocks.
“You’ll do,
wench,” I say. My Blackberry buzzes making me frown. She eyes me, and her gaze
makes me grin.
“My eyes only,
Mrs. Grey,” I say slapping her behind once more, and sit back and answer the
call. Anastasia drifts back to her nap.
Once I finish my
phone call, I motion a waitress to order drinks for us, ““Mademoiselle?
Un Perrier pour moi, un Coca-Cola light pour ma femme, s’il vous plait. Et
quelque chose a manger... laissez-moi voir la carte.”
Anastasia wakes
up hearing me talking to the waitress. I gaze at my beautiful wife as she
flutters her eyes open watching the waitress walk away with her tray.
“Thirsty?” I
ask.
“Yes,” she
replies sleepily.
“I could watch
you all day. Tired?” I ask. The warm sun makes her even sleepier. She blushes.
“I didn’t get much sleep last night,” she replies.
“Me neither,” I
grin, looking at my wife. Last night’s exertions were extremely pleasant. I put
my Blackberry aside, and divest myself of my cutout jeans. As I take my
flip-flops off, I invite my wife for a swim with me. I’m in a playful mood.
“Come for a swim
with me, baby,” I say holding my hand out to her. She looks at me semi
incoherent, still tired. “Swim?” I ask cocking my head to one side, completely
amused. She’s too sleepy to comprehend a simple question. I shake my head
slowly, and as the gears are turning in my head, I know what I will do to wake
her up.
“I think you
need a wake-up call,” I say and pounce on my wife, lifting her in my arms while
she shrieks, completely surprised.
“Christian! Put
me down!” she says squealing, making me chuckle.
“Only in the
sea, baby,” I reply, walking toward the turquoise waters of the Mediterranean
under the bemused, disinterested gazes of the beach-goers. I make the short
distance in the sand, and wade into the warm waters of the Mediterranean.
Anastasia clasps her arms around my neck. Realizing what I’m going to do, she
says, “You wouldn't!” breathlessly, but with a hint of amusement.
I grin at her in
response. “Oh, Ana, baby, have you learned nothing in the short time we've known each other?” I answer kissing her. She reciprocates forcefully; her
fingers running through my hair, grasping handfuls of it, kissing me back
fervently as if she isn't getting enough of me, and I push my tongue into her
mouth. She’s trying to get a rise out of me so I won’t drop her into the water.
Once I manage to pull back from her lips, completely breathless, turned on, and
hungry for her, I gaze at Ana with dark, salacious eyes.
“I know your
game,” I whisper and slowly sink into the water with her in my arms as I lock
my lips with hers once again. She wraps herself around me with her arms.
“I thought you
wanted to swim,” she murmurs against my lips. I did, but I can improvise.
“You are very
distracting,” I reply, my teeth grazing her delectable lower lip. I want to
take her here, in the sea, but we now have a growing audience. “But I’m not
sure I want the good people of Monte Carlo to see my wife in the throes of
passion.”
This time she
runs her teeth along my jaw, trying to seduce me. She’s already turned me on,
and I can barely stand not fucking her in the warm waters of the Mediterranean.
But I restrain myself considering the ever growing audience at the beach.
“Ana,” I groan.
I wrap her ponytail around my wrist tugging it gently, tilting her head back. As
I expose her throat, I trial kisses from her ear down to her neck.
“Shall I take
you in the sea?” I ask breathless.
“Yes,” she
whispers, demanding. I pull away to look at her, with nothing but desire and
wanting in my eyes.
“Mrs. Grey,
you’re insatiable, and so brazen. What sort of monster have I created?”
“A monster fit
for you. Would you have me any other way?” she asks. Oh baby, you know the
answer to that. “I’ll take you any way I can get you, you know that. But not
right now. Not with an audience,” I respond jerking my head towards the beach.
There are several people who are now interested in our interaction in the sea, some of whom wielding binoculars. I suddenly grab Anastasia by the waist, and
launch her into the air letting her fall into the water and sink beneath the
waves and the soft sand on the sea floor. What I did to her is so unexpected,
all I see is her flailing arms, and for a second I get concerned that I will
have to rescue my wife from five feet of sea water, but soon enough she surfaces,
coughing, spluttering and giggling.
“Christian!” she
scolds me with her forbidding glare. It’s her,
I’m-disappointed-I-didn't-get-sex look, and I have to bite my lower lip to
stifle my amusement. She splashes me knowing, and I splash her right back.
“We have all
night,” I remind her, and grin as wide as possible. “Laters, baby,” I say and
dive under the surface away from Anastasia, swimming away from the shore. She
doesn’t attempt to catch up to me. She’s not a fast swimmer as I am. When I’m
nearly fifty yards away, she gives up and swims towards the shore. She can have
her Coke and lounge as I swim and burn some energy. Otherwise we’ll both be up
all night again. I swim further in the sea and I can feel the temperature
change in the water. It’s noticeably cooler than the shore. I’ve been in water
over half an hour. Deciding to get back to the beach, I start my strokes
towards shore. As I get closer to the shore, I eye our sun lounger to see if
Anastasia’s is sitting and waiting in it. Fuck! She's waiting for me alright! She’s fucking topless, face up,
sleeping! And half the fucking beach is eyeing her, including my security
detail! Shit! Fuck! I double my efforts to get to the beach, swimming faster
than I ever did, and practically sprint to the sun lounger she's lying on.
I stand
breathless at the foot of the lounger and the fucking French security twins are
grinning with the floor show she's provided, and Taylor is scowling at them. I’m beyond boiling mad!
“What the hell
do you think you’re doing?” I shout at her waking her up. The anger brewing in
me could dry up my drenching body. She opens her eyes, confused at first, and
then realizes her topless state.
“I was on my
front. I must have turned over in my sleep,” she whispers defensively. I am
burning with fury. I reach down and scoop the bikini top which she carelessly tossed onto
my sun lounger, and toss it back at her. I am not entirely sure if she just turned
over to her front in her sleep. She is doing this to challenge my authority. She loves to do
opposite of everything I ask her to do. Fuck! Why the simple requests I make of her is a game to her? Does she not care or value what I think?
“Put this on!” I
hiss through my gritted teeth.
“Christian, no
one is looking,” is her flimsy excuse. No one is looking? Even the security details I'm paying are ogling her. Is she babbling to get me madder?
“Trust me.
They’re looking. I’m sure Taylor and the security crew are enjoying the show!”
I snarl. More than enjoying. She finally has the decency to cover her breasts
with her arms in panic after eyeing the security, and seeing their gazes locked
on her very perky boobs.
“Yes!” I snarl
back at her. “And some sleazy fucking paparazzi could get a shot of you, too.
Do you want to be all over the cover of Star magazine? Naked this time?” I
bellow. I don’t fucking believe it! Why does she do things always opposite of
what I tell her? Has she no consideration? Why does she have to challenge
everything I ask her not to do?
As soon as I see
one of the waitresses walking by, I shout, “L’addition!” for the bill as I hand
her a credit card. “We’re going,” I say to her with finality.
“Now?” she asks.
Now, damn it!
“Yes. Now!” I
say, turning to the other sun lounger, I grab cut out shorts and pull them on
my dripping swimming trunks, and pull over my gray t-shirt. When the waitress
comes back with my card charged, and the bill to sign, I render my signature
without looking at the bottom line.
After seeing my
determined demeanor, Anastasia puts her turquoise sundress on, and steps into
her flip-flops. I hide my anger, tension and fury behind my aviator sunglasses,
and angrily snatch my Blackberry and finance book. Does she think that her
prank was funny? Just because we’re at a beach in Monaco doesn’t mean that I
would stop hating others eye-fucking my wife! What’s more it’s a hard limit for
me! It’s right up there with being touched by anyone other than Anastasia!
Seeing her topless in public made all my synapses flash, Red! Red! Red! Red!
Red! Nonstop!! She makes me feel helpless. She takes my orderly world and turns
it upside down, breaks all my limits! How is a man supposed to deal with this?
I have to show her what her behavior makes me feel like. I have to show her how
desperate, helpless, incompetent I feel when it comes to her.
I can’t utter
another word to her. The anger I feel is palpable. “Please don’t be mad at me,”
she whispers as she takes my book and the Blackberry placing them into her
backpack.
“Too late for that,”
I say in a very low, quiet, determined to punish voice.
“Come,” I say
taking her hand into mine. I signal to Taylor and the French twins Philippe and
Gaston. How could Anastasia forget that three huge security guys detailing us
24/7 round the clock? Taylor seems to be mad at Anastasia as well knowing I
will grill him momentarily for not waking Anastasia up and allowing others to
ogle and eye fuck my wife. Just the thought of it is torturing me! I don’t
share! She’s my wife, damn it! She was saying earlier that every other woman on
the beach is topless. I’m a hot blooded American for fuck's sake! I’m Christian Grey!
I’m not every other woman’s boyfriend or husband; what they do or don't do is none of my fucking business. I’m Anastasia’s husband! I
take care of what is mine, and I am proprietary. Fuck this! I"m boiling mad. I walk towards the
hotel pulling Anastasia behind me. We walk through the hotel and into the
street. The anger is still boiling and brewing inside me.
How can I punish
her? Orgasm denial? It’s standard in BDSM. That’s not enough. I want her to
feel as helpless, as desperate, as defenseless, as powerless, as paralyzed, as
exposed as I feel when she pulls one of her disobedient pranks on me. I want
her to walk in my shoes, feel what I feel! She cuts me open, and lets me bleed
slowly. I vaguely notice that Taylor and
his Francophone sidekicks are quietly shadowing us with just enough distance
that my wrath doesn’t wash over them.
“Where are we
going?” Anastasia asks gazing up at me.
“Back to the
boat,” I respond without looking at her. I don’t want her chagrin, or her
remorse to soften me. When we reach to the marina, it’s about quarter to six in
the afternoon. I lead her to the part of the marina where the motorboat and the
Jet Ski belonging to the Fair Lady are moored. I untie the Jet Ski while
Anastasia hands her backpack to Taylor to be carried on the motorboat.
Anastasia glances at me and Taylor nervously. He places the backpack into the
boat, and hands Anastasia a life vest.
“Here you go,
Mrs. Grey,” he says, and Anastasia puts it on silently. I look at Taylor finally
spewing some of my rage into him. He knows that I’m extremely unhappy he let
Ana get topless with these French twins ogling her. He could have gone and put
a towel on her for fuck’s sake! His look, gaze and demeanor tell me that he didn't want to cross my boundaries. Has he just met me? He knows I get jealous
of my wife! Was it better that the entire Monaco ogling my woman’s breasts?
I turn back to
Anastasia who strapped her life jacket, but I have double check her handiwork,
and tighten the middle one, and mutter sullenly, “You’ll do.” I still can’t get
myself look at her. Still so fucking angry for defying me! What message was she
trying to get across? Was it, ‘Look at me, I’m a hot babe, and available’, or
‘I can give me husband a coronary before he hits 30!’?
I take a deep
breath and climb onto the Jet Ski, and hold my hand out for her to join me on
it. The second she touches my hand, our connections jolts me alive again, and
stirs a yearning inside me for her. She grasps my hand tightly, and throws her
leg over the Jet Ski behind me. Taylor and the Francophone twins clamber into
the motorboat. I kick the Jet Ski away from the doc, and let it float into the
marina.
“Hold on!” I
order Anastasia, and she better obey. She puts her arms around me, and holds on
tightly, hugging me close to her. Her nose nuzzles on my back and our
connection makes me feel alive. A tinge of relief floods which I hold at bay. I
can feel her inhaling my scent making me stiffen. I don’t want to let go of the anger.
She needs to be punished. She cannot keep crossing all of my boundaries.
“Steady,” I
remind her, but anger melts away slightly with her proximity despite my resolve. She kisses my
back, and rests her cheek against me. I turn the ignition of the Jet Ski and
when the motor roars to life, I twist the accelerator and we buck forward
through the dark water of the marina and toward the Fair Lady docked at the
center of the harbor. Anastasia holds onto me tightly, but I can feel her
vibrating excitement. She loves this mode of travel. Anything that can get her
exited is exciting for me.
Taylor pulls the
motorboat alongside the Jet Ski, and I glance at him to let him know we’ll have
a little fun before we board. I accelerate and we shoot forward, whip over the
top of the water. Taylor, unable to keep up with me, heads the motorboat back
to the yacht. I twist the accelerator again and the Jet Ski pushes forward
towards the open water. The sea spray splashes us, and Ana’s excitement is
completely palpable, contagious. She is completely thrilled, and I am excited
to show her a good time. No matter how angry I get with her, my life’s mission
is still making her extremely happy.
I steer the Jet
Ski in a giant semicircle and we turn away from the open seas and face the
marina, and look at the Mont Agel, the mountain creating a natural border
between France and Monaco. We can even see the Chemin des Révoires which is also called the Roof of Monaco. The disarray
of blocks of apartments, various hues of white, yellow, pink, and sandy color
apartments are visible and somehow make the city distinct, and enticing. Anastasia
squeals in delight. I glance over my shoulder looking at her, and try to
suppress my smile.
“Again?” I shout over the noise of the Jet Ski.
She nods vigorously, and her enthusiasm makes me grin ear to ear. I twist the
throttle and we speed around the Fair Lady and onto the open sea once again. We
make the loop twice more, and each time Anastasia screams in delight. I finally
slow the Jet Ski down and pull alongside The Fair Lady. Once we make up on the yacht,
I pull her towards, me and unbuckle her life jacket.
“ You've caught the sun,” I say noticing her tan.
It’s a delightful shade and makes her skin glow, a healthy shade making her
even more beautiful. She looks at me questioning, searching, assessing. One of
the stewards is standing nearby quietly waiting for the life jacket which I
hand to him.
“Will that be
all, sir?” he asks.
“One second,” I
reply. He nods and waits. I take off my Aviator sunglasses, and tuck them into
the collar of my gray t-shirt.
“Would you like
a drink?” I ask Anastasia.
“Do I need one?”
she asks surprising me. I cock my head to one side and question her in a soft
voice. “Why would you say that?”
“You know why,”
she replies. My wife is too smart and she knows me well. I don’t want to hurt
her, but I want her to know how she makes me feel.
“Two gin and
tonics, please. And some nuts and olives,” I order the steward who nods and
disappears.
Now that we are
alone, what do I do with my wife? My mind is racing with different punishment
possibilities all of which involving Anastasia in my bed.
“You think I’m
going to punish you?” I ask her in a seductive voice.
“Do you want
to?” she asks.
“Yes,” I reply
truthfully.
“How?” she
probes.
“I’ll think of
something. Maybe when you've had your drink,” I say finally making up my mind.
I know exactly what I want to do. She visibly swallows, but it’s hard to read
her demeanor. She looks anticipatory, but I don’t want to misread it. If she
doesn’t want to be punished, I can’t. I frown with the thought.
“You want to
be?” I ask.
She flushes,
“Depends,” she mutters in response. She sounds hopeful.
“On what?” I
ask, trying to hide my smile.
“If you want to
hurt me or not.”
Fuck! I don’t
want to hurt her! She’s my wife for God’s sake. I just want her to understand
my limits; my hard limits. I don’t want her to associate me, her husband with hurt
and distress. I lean forward and kiss her forehead.
“Anastasia,
you’re my wife, not my sub. I don’t ever want to hurt you. You should know that
by now. Just... just don’t take your clothes off in public. I don’t want you
naked all over the tabloids. You don’t want that, and I’m sure your mom and Ray
don’t want that either,” I remind her.
She looks
completely chagrined and just realizes the few minutes of indiscretion can
cause a lot of embarrassment for a lot of us.
The steward
finally comes back with our drinks and snacks and puts them on the teak table
on deck.
“Sit,” I order
her. She sits into a director’s chair while I take a seat next to her. I pass
one of the gin and tonics to her.
“Cheers, Mrs.
Grey,” I hold my glass.
“Cheers, Mr.
Grey,” she replies taking a sip. She closes her eyes and takes another sip
savoring, quenching her thirst. She looks so fucking hot! When she opens her
eyes, and looks up, she finds me gazing at her. My face is impassive and I’m
fighting inside how to deal with her. I am still mad, and I still want her to
know that it’s not acceptable for her to take her clothes off in public, and
that she’s my wife, but I don’t want to hurt her. How do I go about this? Even
pleasure can be effectively used as a punishment. Oh, yes! Mrs. Grey, you’re in for a
Christian Grey punishment fuck! Anastasia is trying to decipher my expression,
but I give nothing away. Giving up, she asks:
“Who owns this
boat?”
“A British
knight. Sir Somebody-or-Other. His great-grandfather started a grocery store.
His daughter’s married to one of the Crown Princes of Europe,” I reply trying
to piece together the information the Shore Manager gave me that day. I was too
angry to remember everything when the First Mate started making a pass at my
wife in my presence.
“Super-rich?”
she asks. Where is she going with this? I don’t want her to think about money
now, like she did on our first night in Paris.
“Yes,” I respond
warily.
“Like you,” she
murmurs. Fuck! Don’t think like that, baby!
“Yes,” I murmur.
Her face falls.
“And like you,”
I whisper her and pop an olive into my mouth as my gaze lingers on her. She
blinks rapidly. I want her to remember that what is mine is also hers. There is
no “me” anymore. It’s us. It’s ours. She’s mine, and I’m hers. She exhales
slowly.
“It’s odd. Going
from nothing to,” she says waving her hand around to indicate the expensive
yacht, “to everything.”
“You’ll get used
to it,” I reply. I don’t ever want her to make this an issue. My wealth is
hers. Without her, I have nothing. She gave meaning to all I have.
“I don’t think
I’ll ever get used to it,” she replies.
Taylor appears
on deck. “Sir, you have a call,” he says and extends the Blackberry.
“Grey,” I snap,
rising from my seat.
“Hi Mr. Grey.
Ros here. I apologize for interrupting your honeymoon, but I’ll get right to
the point right away,” she says.
“Well, hurry up
then. You’re taking my time! What’s up?”
“It’s the Taiwan
shipyard...”
“I’m listening,”
I respond.
“Walter and I
need to Taiwan to meet with the heads of the company...”
****❦ ♡ ❧*****
As soon as I hang
up with Ros, I’m anxious to get back to my wife on deck. I quickly walk to her
sitting at the same spot I left her. She’s deep in thought just as I left her,
still stewing about our money, her face is still fallen.
“You will get used
to it,” I interrupt her thoughts.
“Used to it?” she
ask.
“The money,” I
reply rolling my eyes. She doesn’t respond but pushes the small bowl of almonds
and cashews toward me.
“Your nuts, sir,”
she says, biting her lips to not to smile. Her response makes me smirk.
“I’m nuts about
you,” I reply taking an almond, enjoying her wicked humor. My nuts, my dick,
and my entire body miss my wife. I lick my lips. “Drink up. We’re going to
bed,” I say with dark eyes.
She looks up at me
questioning. “Drink,” I mouth her, salacity, desire, carnal thoughts lacing my
gaze. She picks up her glass, and drains her gin without taking her eyes off
me. Her look says she too wants me badly, making my mouth drop open and the tip
of my tongue caught between my teeth. Oh what I’m going to do to you Mrs. Grey.
I stand up gracefully, knowing she’s watching my every move, and bend over my
wife, my hands resting on the arms of her chair.
“I’m going to make
an example of you. Come. Don’t pee,” I whisper in her ear. She looks at me with
alarm. No, I’m not into golden shower.
“It’s not what you
think,” I say smirking and hold my hand out to her. “Trust me,” I whisper, wanton.
“Okay,” she
replies placing her hand into mine. Her trust is written all over her face. Her
chest is heaving up and down in excitement and anticipation. I lead my wife
across the deck and through the main salon, and through the narrow corridor,
the dining room, and down the stairs to the main master cabin; our bedroom. Our
cabin has been cleaned, our bed made. The cabin is cream colored accented with
rich red, gold and mahogany colors and walnut furniture. The two portholes on
both the starboard and port sides are framed and decorated with small red and
gold colored curtains.
I release
Anastasia’s hand when we enter into the cabin. I pull my t-shirt over my head
and toss it onto a chair. I remove my flip-flops and my shorts and swimming
trunks stand before my wife completely naked. She is eating me up with her gaze
biting her lip. Her gaze is carnal. I reach up to her chin and release her lip
then run my thumb along her lower lip.
“That’s better,” I
murmur and stride over to the walnut armoire housing my clothes. I open the
bottom drawers and pull out two pairs of metal handcuffs, and an airline eye
mask from. She eyes get wide and she glances around nervously at the bed trying
to see where I can attach the cuffs. Baby you have no idea what I can do with a
pair of these. My gaze is on her steadily, my eyes dark, carnal, anticipatory.
“These can be
quite painful. They can bite into the skin if you pull too hard,” I say holding
a pair of the handcuffs up. “But I really want to use them on you now,” I say. I
need to! When she disobeys me deliberately, I feel worse than being handcuffed.
I feel helpless, voiceless, without control, without a rudder, adrift without a
direction. She makes me feel debilitated, up the creek without a fucking paddle
and in a pair of handcuffs! Her face is panicky.
“Here,” I say
trying to put her at ease handing her a set. “Do you want to try them first?”
She holds the solid, cold metal cuffs in her hands weighing. Her fingers run
around the open cuffs, still anxious. I watch her every move, ever touch, every
expression intently.
“Where are the
keys?” she asks in a wavering voice.
I hold them out in
my palm, showing her the small metallic key. “This does both the sets. In fact,
all sets,” I reply. They’re universal. Her eyes are questioning. I don’t want
her to be afraid, but I really have to do this. I lean down; stroke her cheek
with my index finger, trailing it down to her mouth. I lean in close enough to
kiss her.
“Do you want to
play?” I challenge her in a low, licentious tone with carnal intent. I want to
fuck. I want to punish. I want to show her what she does to me. I love her damn
it, and it drives me insane when she disobeys! I hated it when her beautiful
breasts were the focal point of half the beach goers. She needs to know how I feel.
“Yes,” she breathes
in response. I smile, “Good,” I reply and plant air light kisses on her
forehead.
“We’re going to
need a safe word,” I say. She looks at me with her ‘what?’ face, questioning.
“Stop won’t be
enough, because you will probably say that, but you won’t mean it,” I reply
running my nose down on her without touching her anywhere else. She is so
turned on. I can feel her heart fluttering; her chest is rising up and down in
rapid succession.
“This is not
going to hurt. It will however be intense. Very intense, because I am not going
to let you move. Okay?” I ask. I want her to absorb all the pleasure, all the
pounding I’m going to give to her, all the intense, overwhelming, mind blowing
sensation. She flushes, and my cock is already in full salute mode. She looks
down at my erection still growing with the sight of her.
“Okay,” she
replies with a barely audible voice, anticipating.
“Choose a word,
Ana,” I remind her.
The thinks for a
few seconds, “Popsicle,” she say, panting.
“Popsicle?” I
ask after she’s been eyeing my cock. She wants to suck me off!
“Yes,” she
replies in a breathy voice.
I grin as I lean
back to gaze down at her. “Interesting choice. Lift your arms up,” I command
and she obeys. I lift the hem of her sundress, pull it over her head and toss
it on the floor. I hold my hand out to her and she places the handcuffs in the
middle of my palm. I put both the sets of handcuffs on the table along with the
blindfold and pull the gold and red colored duvet off the bed letting it fall
to the floor.
“Turn around,” I
order. She does, and I undo her bikini top, letting it fall onto the floor.
“Tomorrow, I
will staple this to you,” I mutter. I tug her hair tie and free her hair. I
collect her hair in one hand. I yank it gently and she steps back against my
chest, against my full grown erection. She gasps. I pull her head to one side
and kiss her neck.
“You were very
disobedient,” I murmur into her ear, making her catch her breath.
“Yes,” she
acknowledges.
“Hmm. What are
we going to do about that?” I ask rhetorically.
“Learn to live
with it,” she breathes her answer making me grin. Optimistic Mrs. Grey. I land
soft languid kisses on her neck driving her wild.
“Ah, Mrs. Grey.
You are ever the optimist,” I murmur against her neck.
I straighten,
and part her three into three strands, and braid it slowly, and finally tie it
with her hair tie at the end. I tug her braid gently and lean down into her
ear. “I am going to teach you a lesson,” I state her punishment...
I move suddenly,
grab her by the waist, sit her on the bed, and yank her across my knee, making
her lay on my erection firmly pressed against her belly. I smack her beautiful
derriere once, very hard. She yelps. I put her on the bed on her backside. I
gaze down at this beautiful creature, with molten desire in my eyes. She is
turned on, hot and bothered, ready to fuck, to be fucked.
“Do you know how
beautiful you are?” I ask as I trail my fingertips up her thigh. A shiver runs
through her body. Without taking my eyes off my gorgeous woman, I get both the
sets of handcuffs. I grasp her left ankle and snap one of the cuffs around her
ankle.
I lift her right
leg, and repeat the process with right leg. She is now lying on the bed with a
pair of handcuffs tied to each ankle.
“Sit up,” I
command her. She obeys immediately.
“Now hug your
knees,” I order.
She blinks at me
as she draws her legs up so they’re bent in front of her and she wraps her arms
around her legs. I reach down, lift her chin up, and plant a soft wet kiss on
her lips before covering her eyes with the blindfold. She’s excited, her senses
are alert. Her lips part in heady anticipation.
“What’s the safe
word, Anastasia?” I ask.
“Popsicle,” she
replies in a breathy tone.
“Good,” I say
and taking her left hand, I snap the cuff around her wrist and repeat the
process on both wrists. Once the task is completed, “Now,” I breathe, “I’m
going to fuck you till you scream.”
Her mouth falls
open. She’s practically panting.
I grasp both of
Anastasia’s heels and tip her, making her fall backward onto the bed. The cuffs
force her to keep her legs bent. She tests them by pulling against them. She’s
completely trussed up and helpless. That’s how she makes me feel more than half
the time. A taste of her own medicine. Her legs are pulled back but placed
together. I pull her ankles apart, and she groans for what’s to come. I lean in
and kiss her inner thigh. Normally she would be squirming, but she won’t be
able to do that in this position without the cuffs digging into her flesh. She
has no choice but to absorb all the pleasure with all its intended intensity.
She tries to move her hips, but the restrains prevents her from doing so.
“You’re going to
have to absorb all the pleasure, Anastasia. No moving,” I murmur, and slowly
inch my way up my wife’s body, kissing her along the edge of her bikini
bottoms. I finally pull the string of the tiny triangles on each side, and the
sexy but small fabric fall away. I inhale sharply seeing my wife completely naked, all trussed up, unable to move under me, to make love, fuck and pleasure punish her
as I wish is a total turn on. I move and
kiss her belly and nip her navel with my teeth.
“Ah...” she
sighs. I trace soft kisses and little bites up to her breast. I suck, and kiss
and nip with just enough pressure to pleasure her, but enough suction to mark
her as mine. Repeat. She won’t be able to take her clothes off for a little
while at the beach with what I have in mind for her. She sighs again with pleasure.
“Shhh...” I
soothe her. The way she looks right now makes me fall in love with her all over
again. “You are so beautiful, Ana,” I declare. She groans her frustration, her
desire. She wants to match my rhythm with hers. Touch me, but she can’t. She
moans again and pulls on her restraints, frustrated, unable to do what she
wants, fulfill her desires, take control, she cries out, “Argh!” pulling
forcefully against her cuffs.
“You drive me
crazy,” I whisper. “So I’m going to drive you crazy,” I murmur resting on her,
putting my weight on my elbows finally turning my attention to her breast. The nipples of her gorgeous twin peaks she displayed to half of Monaco including the security
detail, however unintentional are tout and begging for attention. My lips and my fingers busy on her nipples. I
take one of her nipples between my teeth sucking it while I pay the same
attention with my thumb and fingers on the other. With expert efficiency I
start nipping, biting, sucking, leaving small trails all over her breast,
driving her wild with indulgence. Taking the other nipple between my teeth, I
render the same pleasurable punishment with my teeth, lips and tongue. Suck,
nip, kiss, bite, lick, roll, pull and touch, never stopping, driving her wild.
She wants to writhe under me, but she can’t without pulling onto her restraints
which forces her to absorb everything I have to give her.
“Christian,” she
starts begging for a release, for a friction. I smile against her skin,
triumphant knowing that she’s finally getting a taste of the torture she’s
giving me.
“Shall I make
you come this way?” I murmur as my lips are wrapped around her nipple which
hardens with her arousal. “You know I can,” I say sucking her harder making her
cry out. I can feel the sensation, the electricity the pleasure traveling from
her nipple, tightening her core, her groin, her sex because she pulls
helplessly on her cuffs, trying to ride the pleasure, spread it around her body
instead of the concentration I'm delivering on one point with all its intensity.
“Yes,” she
whimpers.
“Oh, baby, that
would be too easy,” I murmur.
“Oh... Please,
Christian,” she begs me.
“Shhh...” I
soothe her as I scrape my teeth over her chin then I slowly, lazily make my way
over to her mouth, consuming it. She gasps as I kiss her. My tongue invades and
takes over her mouth. Exploring, moving, tasting, caressing, feeling, commanding,
dancing with her tongue. She meets my thrusts move by move with her tongue, writhing,
clashing, stroking, sucking, and matching my fervor, and intensity of my
desire. I grasp her chin, holding her head in place.
“Still, baby. I
want you still,” I whisper against her mouth.
“But, I want to
see you,” she complains.
“Oh no, Ana.
You’ll feel more this way,” I whisper. Not knowing what I will do next, not
knowing what to expect, not seeing forces her to use and rely on her sense of
hearing, smell and touch. I want her to feel. Sometimes seeing renders other
senses dull, useless even. I want her to completely feel what I'm doing and absorb it all. Slowly and
expertly I flex my hips and push my cock only partway into her. She strains to
push her pelvis to grasp and pull my cock into her sex, but she can’t move. She
wants me, but she’s unable to get me the way she wants me. She’s frustrated,
just like I have been. I pull my cock back knowing she’s going to be
frustrated.
“Ah! Christian,
please!” she begs for friction.
“Again?” I ask
playfully, teasing her in a hoarse voice.
“Christian! I
want you!” she begs again.
I push in
agonizingly slow, only a small fraction of my length and withdraw while kissing
her, tugging her nipples with my fingers. She’s overloaded with please, but not
localized enough to make her come, and she’s desperate for it.
“No!” she says,
but doesn’t safe word. She’s cracking under the intensity of my ministrations.
“Do you want me,
Anastasia?” I ask her through gritted teeth.
“Yes,” she begs
in a whinny voice.
“Tell me,” I
order hoarsely. I need to know. I want to know. I have to know that she wants me! That
she’s desperate for me! For me alone! Not some other random guy who might take
a peek at her breasts.
“I want you,”
she whimpers. “Please, I want you!” Her declaration gives me relief, and I sigh
softly by her ear.
“And have me you
will, Anastasia,” I say, and finally rear up and slam into her sex, balls deep,
hard! She screams, tilts her head back, pulls on her restraints. As I hit on
her secret sweet spot, buried deep inside her sex, on the front wall of her
vagina, I can feel the shudders moving through her entire body; focused,
agonizingly intense, pleasurable, over the limit kind of fuck. She tries to
move, and match my thrust, but she can’t. I still inside her, savoring my wife,
enjoying our connection. Then I circle my hips, giving the friction she’s been
begging, rubbing her sweet spot, letting the feeling radiate all the way to her
fingertips from deep within her. This is what she does to me. She mind fucks
me, rubs me over and over and over again, defying, leaving me helpless.
“Why do you defy
me, Ana?” I ask unable to help myself.
“Christian,
stop...” she admonishes. She admonishes me even though she’s the one who is
defying me, leaving me bereft, vulnerable. She doesn’t answer me. I circle my
hips again, my cock teasing, and rubbing her. I slowly ease out of her sex, and
slam into her again.
“Tell me. Why?”
I hiss through gritted teeth. I need to know. Does she hate me? Does she like
to get a rise out of me? Does she want someone else? Something else? I am
desperate to know!
She cries out an
incoherent wail...
“Tell me!” I
slam into her again.
“Christian...”
she admonishes.
“Ana, I. need.
To. Know.” I say slamming into her with each word, trusting deep inside her
sex, farther with intensity. She pulls against her restraints, ready to climax,
ready to come, her sex clenches deep inside, wrapping tightly around my cock,
and pulsing, ready to milk me.
“I don’t know!”
she cries out. “Because I can! Because I love you! Please, Christian,” she
begs, and her declaration is my undoing. She manages to take over me mentally
even though she’s the one restrained. I groan loudly, and thrust deep in her
inviting sex over and over and over again. She’s lost to the sensation, lost to
our fucking, lost to the overwhelming intensity I’m giving her. She opens her
mouth, and moans, her voice is incoherent.
“That’s it,” I
growl. “Feel it, baby!” As she reaches the peak of her ecstasy, she screams loudly;
her orgasm detonating in large waves, sweeping through her body, and rolling
into my body through our connection, her body pulsing and shaking with the
aftershocks of her pleasure. I kneel before her, my cock still inside her. I
pull my wife upright onto my lap. I clutch her head with one hand, and hold her
back with the other and thrust into her two more times emptying all I have,
coming inside her with such a violent orgasm, my head involuntarily jerks back
in an arch. My cock pulses, throbbing, lost in the orgasm. The long strokes I
thrust into her slowly milk me. While taking everything I have, it not only
provides a physical relief, but also an emotional one.
I tear off the
blindfold and kiss Ana. I capture her lips and stoke her mouth with my tongue,
then I kiss her eyes, her nose, and her cheeks. There are tears in her eyes. I
kiss them away clutching her face between my hands.
“I love you,
Mrs. Grey,” I breathe into her mouth. “Even though you make me so mad – I feel
so alive with you,” I confess. She is my lifeline. She is what makes me feel
intensely alive. She is so exhausted; she can’t sound a single word. Gently, I
lay my wife on the bed, and pull out of her.
She tries to
protest wordlessly, but she’s lost. I quickly climb off the bed, and undo her
handcuffs. Once I get her out of her hand cuffs, I rub her hands, wrists,
ankles when she pulls against her restraints. Lying next to my wife, I pull her
into my arms, and she stretches her legs, tangling them with mind, and soon
weary with our exertions, she falls asleep in my arms, naked. I watch my wife
in her quiet slumber. She looks even younger, and more innocent. She has
endured her punishment fuck, and yet I feel I’m the one who is punished, I’m
the one who reclaimed life again.
When Anastasia
is in deep sleep, I slip out of the bed, and go to the en-suite bathroom to take
a shower. Once I come out, I quickly dry myself, and put on my while linen
shirt and my chino pants. I climb on the bed with my laptop and start working.
The sky outside get dark right around nine p.m. The yacht is moving towards
Cannes. Anastasia moves beside me in bed. I still, and stop typing to not to wake her
up, but it has the opposite effect. She opens her eyes, first confused, trying
to assess where she is.
“Hi,” I murmur
at her, gazing down with nothing but love towards her.
“Hi,” she smiles
back, and blushes. Why the shyness? “How long have I been asleep?” she asks.
“Just an hour or
so,” I reply.
“Are we moving?”
“Yes. I figured
since we ate out last night and went to the ballet and the Casino that we’d
dine on board tonight. A quiet night à deux.” She grins in response.
“We are we going?”
“Cannes,” I
reply.
“Okay,” she says
trying to stretch. She sits, and lowers her legs to the floor. I glance at her
and notice the hickies I left on her. Ana grabs the silk robe; she puts it on
quickly, still very shy. My eyes continue to follow her movement. I feel
uneasy, unhappy with the marks. My brows furrow. I turn my gaze back to my work
on my laptop, but I find myself unable to focus. Why the hell do I feel this
way? She defied me, laid on the beach with bare breasts and a two pieces of triangles
for a bikini bottom. And I’m the one who is feeling shitty! Anastasia walks
into the bathroom. I look and gaze at the bathroom door, waiting for her to
come out. Waiting anxiously for her reaction when she notices her hickies. But
she doesn’t come out. What is she doing in there? I don’t hear the water
running. No sound. Is she mad? Oh hell! What is wrong? She comes out of the
bathroom, and completely avoiding my gaze or even sparing a look in my
direction, she stalks into the closet. She’s so fucking mad at me! Oh shit!
“Anastasia,” I
call out to her, anxious to hear her response. “Are you okay?”
She doesn’t
reply. Few minutes later she steps into the bedroom emanating fury, in her camisole and
sweatpants, and without a word she hurls something at me. I barely have time to
react and automatically raise my arms to protect my head. Anastasia storms out
of the cabin and I vaguely realize that she hurled her hairbrush at me like a
pro-baseball player. I am both impressed and worried about her anger. This is
the reason my woman can math me in everything.
I follow her out
of the cabin. I take the steps two at a time to get to upstairs. When I hit the
deck, the balmy air hits me. The briny smell of Mediterranean, the sweet scent
of jasmine and the bougainvillea that smells something between putrefying
plants and last night’s broccoli creating an interesting concoction blowing from the shore. The Mediterranean Sea looks cobalt blue in the dark of
the night, and the Fair Lady glides over the sea smoothly. Anastasia is gazing
into the distant shore as her elbows are resting on the wooden railing,
absently watching the distancing lights. I stand behind her without making a
movement or an effort to touch her. She’s vibrating tension, and anger.
“You’re mad at
me,” I whisper.
“No shit,
Sherlock!” she hisses.
“How mad?” I ask
softly.
“Scale of one to
ten, I think I’m at fifty. Apt, huh?” she responds. That’s impressively
furious; a woman whose wrath could match and exceed mine. A woman fit for me.
“That mad,” I
reply with a voice that sounds surprised and impressed at the same time.
“Yes. Pushed to
violence mad,” she replies through gritted teeth. Yep, just like me! I know how
to handle me, but I have not seen her, this mad! How do I handle this? I remain
silent, and watch her with wide and wary eyes. I’m lost. I don’t know how to
handle this. What do I do? My silence makes her turn to me. She eyes me warily,
assessing my mood, expression.
“Christian, you
have to stop unilaterally trying to bring me to heel. You made your point on
the beach. Very effectively, as I recall,” she says. She knows why I had done
it. I shrug. “Well, you won’t take your top off again,” I murmur, and I sound
like a petulant child.
Her eyes are
full of fire when she glares at me. “I don’t like you leaving marks on me.
Well, not this many, anyway. It’s a hard limit!” she hisses. Really? Fuck that!
What about my hard limits? Why do I have to be the one who is accommodating,
and feeling helpless? Why should my hard limits be crossed all over?
“I don’t like
you taking your clothes off in public. That’s a hard limit for me,” I growl at
her in response.
“I think we've established that,” she hisses again through her gritted teeth. “Look at me!”
she shouts pulling her camisole down. The tops of her breasts are dotted with
hickies. My gaze slips back to her face, unblinking. I’m wary, uncertain. She’s
mad, and I feel like shit! I know she’s mad, but why would she take her top off
when I explicitly said she couldn't Did I not establish my hard limit? I
think, I’ve clearly done that. But, I don’t want to hurt or mark
her.
“Okay,” I
finally say in an assuaging tone. “I get it.”
“Good!” she
shouts, but I think the fight is out of her. I’m exasperated with her, with me,
with our fight. I run my hands through my hair. “I’m sorry. Please don’t be mad
at me,” I apologize. I know when she says that to me, she melts my heart,
taking the fight out of me. But I do feel remorseful.
“You are such an
adolescent sometimes,” she admonishes me. She’s right of course. I take a step
towards her. I don’t want us to fight. I hate the distance between us,
emotional and otherwise. I can’t take it. I slowly, tentatively raise my hand
and tuck her hair behind her ear.
“I know,” I
acknowledge in a soft tone. “I have a lot to learn.” I don’t know any other
way.
“We both do,”
she replies and sighs. She then raises her hand, and softly, cautiously places
it over my heart. The gesture though small is significant for me. She is the
only one who can touch me like that. I don’t flinch, but still stiffen. But I want
her touch, I crave it, I can’t live without it. I place my hand over hers as
relief washes over me, and smile at her.
“I’ve just
learned that you've got a good arm and a good aim, Mrs. Grey. I would never
have figured that, but then I constantly underestimate you. You always surprise
me,” I say softly.
She raises her
eyebrows at me, “target practice with Ray. I can throw and shoot straight, Mr.
Grey, and you’d do well to remember that,” she warns me playfully.
“I will endeavor
to do that, Mrs. Grey, or ensure that all potential projectile objects are
nailed down and that you don’t have access to a gun,” I smirk at her. She
smirks right back at me.
“I’m
resourceful,” she wiggles her eyebrows, making me smile.
“Oh, that you
are, Mrs. Grey,” I whisper, and wrap my arms around her, pulling her into a
tight embrace. This is the only place I want to be, wrapped around my wife,
holding her, inhaling her scent, connected. I lean down and nuzzle her.
“Am I forgiven?”
I ask softly. I want to know that everything is well between us.
“Am I?” she
asks. At that moment I know she forgave me. “Yes,” I reply.
“Ditto,” she
says. Relief washes over me. I love her immensely. We hold each other like this
for several minutes. Realizing we haven’t had dinner, I ask, “Hungry?”
She has her
resting against my chest. “Yes. Famished. All the...uhm...activity has given me
an appetite. But I’m not dressed for dinner,” she says. Who says we have to go
out?
“You look good
to me, Anastasia. Besides, it’s our boat for the week. We can dress how we
like. Think of it as dress down Tuesday on the Cote D’Azur. Anyway, I thought
we’d eat on deck.”
“Yes, I’d like
that,” she replies smiling. Her smile melts my heart, washes away my worries
and I lean down to kiss her. Kiss her with all I’ve got, ask her forgiveness
with my kiss. Declare my love with the each molding of our lips, and caresses
of our tongues. I love her. When we’re finally both breathless from out kiss, I
take her hand, and walk her to the bow of the yacht where the dinner table is
set for us.
We start our
dinner with gazpacho soup. Although there is so much to eat, I can’t pay attention
to what I’m eating. My focus is on my wife. When finally the desert is served,
and the steward is gone, Anastasia asks me a question very curiously.
“Why do you
always braid my hair?” she asks as we’re sitting next to each other at the table. She
slowly curls her leg around mine. It’s such a simple, yet a very sensual act. I
break the burnt sugar on top of the crème brulée and think of her question.
There are two answers to that, but I don’t want to tell her the first one and
raise her curiosity. I’m not ready to talk about the crack whore to her and
break this magical moment. The crack whore used to let me comb her hair. But
the answer I give her is the simpler of the two.
“I don’t want
your hair catching in anything,” I say quietly. “Habit, I think,” I shrug. But
hiding the main reason from my wife bothers me. I frown, my eyes widen, and my pupils
dilate with alarm. I don’t want to think about a mother who didn't love me. For
a moment, I’m lost in memories. Lost in the few precious moments I’ve had with
her. There were only very few of them. Combing her hair was one of them. Seeing
the alarm on my face makes Anastasia anxious. She leans over and puts her index
finger over my lips.
“No, it doesn’t
matter. I don’t need to know. I was just curious,” she says softly, warmly,
with a reassuring smile. She anchors me to here and now with her sweet tone. I
focus on my wife; focus on the love she’s showing me. She’s my anchor,
stationing me, placing me to sanity. I finally manage to feel relief with Ana’s
reassurance. She leans over, and kisses the corner of my mouth.
“I love you,”
she whispers, and her declaration is more precious to me than anything. I need
her love more than I need my next breath. “I will
always love you, Christian,” she adds without breaking her gaze from me.
“And I you,” I
manage to respond softly.
“In spite of my
disobedience?” she asks raising her eyebrows.
“Because of your
disobedience, Anastasia,” I reply finally, grinning. Her reply is a
heartbreaking smile. Once the dinner is over, I reach for the bottle of rosé
and refill her glass. Anastasia first glances around like she normally does
when she wants to ask me something discreetly.
“What’s with the
no going to the bathroom thing?” she asks.
“You really want
to know?” I ask with a half-smile, my eyes are alight with a salacious grin.
“Do I?” she
questions me as she takes a sip of her wine.
“The fuller your
bladder, the more intense your orgasm, Ana,” I reply. The pressure of slightly
full bladder exerts a slight pressure on the sexual organs, stimulating them,
and making them more sensitive. And besides, the more tease, the bigger the
please. That’s why I started, stopped, restarted over and over again.
Lovemaking is a marathon, not a sprint for me. She blushes at my response.
“Oh, I see,” she
replies making me grin.
“Yes. Well...”
she looks around for a way to change the subject.
I take pity on
her and change the topic. “What do you want to do for the rest of the evening?”
I ask with a smile. She shrugs.
“I know what I
want to do,” I murmur. I grab my glass of wine, and rise extending my hand to
her. “Come,” I order. I lead Anastasia to the main salon. My iPod is already
docked. I turn it on, and scroll down my list to choose a song for us. I choose
a song by the velvet voiced Michael Buble and Laura Pausini, “You’ll Never Find
Another Love Like Mine”. I press the
button and the seductive, velvety voices echoes around.
“Dance with me,”
I say darkly, pulling her into my arms.
“If you insist.”
“Oh, I insist,
Mrs. Grey,” I say huskily. I sweep her off her feet and twirl her around the
dance floor. She yelps and giggles as I dip her low. Then I scoop her up and
spin her under my arm.
“You dance so
well. It’s like I can dance,” she says. I smile. Her face slightly falls. She
knows that Elena introduced me to dancing, but I learned with my own efforts. I’ve
taken lessons to get a right and a left foot in the same body. I dip her once
again, and kiss her on the lips. She sings along with the singers.
“You’re gonna
miss my love,” she murmurs, echoing the lyrics.
“I’d more than
miss your love,” I say spinning her once again, singing the words into her ear.
You'll never find, as
long as you live
Someone who loves you tender like I do
You'll never find, no matter where you search
Someone who cares about you the way I do
Whoa, I'm not braggin' on myself, baby
But I'm the one who loves you
And there's no one else, no-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh one else
You'll never find, it'll take the end of all time
Someone to understand you like I do
You'll never find the rhythm, the rhyme
All the magic we shared, just us two
Whoa, I'm not tryin' to make you stay, baby
But I know somehow, some day, some way
You are (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss, you're gonna miss my love
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh (you're gonna miss my lovin')
Late in the midnight hour, baby (you're gonna miss my lovin')
When it's cold outside (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss, you're gonna miss my lo-o-ove
You'll never find another love like mine
Someone who needs you like I do
You'll never see what you've found in me
You'll keep searching and searching your whole life through
Whoa, I don't wish you no bad luck, baby
But there's no ifs and buts or maybes
You're gonna, You're gonna miss (miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
I know you're gonna my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss, you're gonna miss my lo-o-ove
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh (you're gonna miss my lovin')
Late in the midnight hour, baby (you're gonna miss my lovin')
When it gets real cold outside (you're gonna miss my lovin')
I know, I know that you are gonna miss my lo-o-ove
Let me tell you that you're gonna miss my lovin'
Yes you will, baby (you're gonna miss my lovin')
When I'm long gone
I know, I know, I know that you are gonna miss
Someone who loves you tender like I do
You'll never find, no matter where you search
Someone who cares about you the way I do
Whoa, I'm not braggin' on myself, baby
But I'm the one who loves you
And there's no one else, no-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh one else
You'll never find, it'll take the end of all time
Someone to understand you like I do
You'll never find the rhythm, the rhyme
All the magic we shared, just us two
Whoa, I'm not tryin' to make you stay, baby
But I know somehow, some day, some way
You are (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss, you're gonna miss my love
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh (you're gonna miss my lovin')
Late in the midnight hour, baby (you're gonna miss my lovin')
When it's cold outside (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss, you're gonna miss my lo-o-ove
You'll never find another love like mine
Someone who needs you like I do
You'll never see what you've found in me
You'll keep searching and searching your whole life through
Whoa, I don't wish you no bad luck, baby
But there's no ifs and buts or maybes
You're gonna, You're gonna miss (miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
I know you're gonna my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss, you're gonna miss my lo-o-ove
Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh (you're gonna miss my lovin')
Late in the midnight hour, baby (you're gonna miss my lovin')
When it gets real cold outside (you're gonna miss my lovin')
I know, I know that you are gonna miss my lo-o-ove
Let me tell you that you're gonna miss my lovin'
Yes you will, baby (you're gonna miss my lovin')
When I'm long gone
I know, I know, I know that you are gonna miss
When the track ends, I gaze down
at my wife with dark, licentious eyes. Her gaze is locked with mine. She is
breathless, desirous, loving.
“Come to bed with me?” I whisper
with a plea. Please baby! Let me properly make you forgive me. The only way I
know how. She only nods, and taking her in my arms, I take her to our bed.
****❦ ♡ ❧*****
Thank you for patiently waiting for this chapter everyone! FYI: A reporter friend of mine informed me that Kivanc Tatlitug (actor/model whose image I've been using to represent CG) is coming to Los Angeles for the LATFF between the dates of Feb 28-March 3rd.
Yet another glorious chapter! Thank you.
ReplyDeleteEmine!(sorry, I don't know how to do the accent mark).Anyways, awesome chapter! Totally made my Friday!! I love reading Christian's POV on how Ana makes him feel helpless. Can't wait for next week!
ReplyDeleteI'm from germany so its quite hard to read but omgggg I love it - its more than great I love Christian so much and would like to be such a lovely girl like Ana :)
ReplyDeleteEmine,
ReplyDeleteAnother fantastic chapter. I absolutely love your portrayal of Christian's rage and his internal dialogue depicting his madness over the loss of control spurred by flighty Ana's antics. I think she would drive even the most sane folks to the asylum. You are an awesome writer. Thank you again for pouring your heart and soul into writing this series. What a fabulous start to the weekend.
Your loyal fan with an almost healed concussion!
Well worth the wait! Too bad I won't be in LA to see your Christian, whom I agree is an excellent choice, in person.
ReplyDeleteLoved it!! :-) Thanks, Emine!!
ReplyDeleteGreat chapter!!! It never ceases to amaze me how well you can illustrate Christian's point of view. I will always take some time off to read your writings. Just wow and I love it. <3
ReplyDeleteMitch, Singapore
Great chapter!!! It never ceases to amaze me how well you can illustrate Christian's point of view. I will always take some time off to read your writings! Just wow and I really love it. <3
ReplyDeleteMitch, Singapore
I loved it! It was fun to see his fifty side again lol
ReplyDeleteIt was totally worth the wait sweetie *-*
Love you
Hi Emine. Welcome back. This chapter was totally worth the wait. Thanks again.
ReplyDeleteThis made my day! Thank you!!! Great as always!!!
ReplyDelete:)
ReplyDeleteAwesome chapter. Was a perfect way to end my birthday! I've been reading your blog for a while and I'm a huge fan! You are an amazing writer. I love reading Christian's pov- thanks!
ReplyDeleteNicole Shields
Thank You! What a perfect way to end my night!! Now I'll have sweet dreams!
ReplyDeleteAnother GREAT chapter!!! Thank you!!! :))
ReplyDeleteAnna
Thanku for this chapter. Loved it
ReplyDeleteHappy Australia Day
Hey Emine, I know its been a while since I last checked in, I've not been well. I have finally caught up with all of your recent chapters and all I can say is Thank You... You are a very talented writer and I have loved the honeymoon chapters that was not given a mention in the original books. I hope you have had a good Christmas and New year and that you are back to good health again. I cant wait to read the next instalment.Take care xx
ReplyDeleteBeen checking all night long and another great chapter and Christian's Pov.
ReplyDeleteThanks Emine, hope you are well and not over exhausted from all those translation work and keeping us happy :)
Wonderful chapter Emine, you are doing a fabulous job!! Thankyou xx
ReplyDeleteWhat can I say that everyone else has not said but thank you, and thank you again. I really look forward to reading your chapters of Christian's POV. You are simply first class at writing these chapters and I look forward to the next one.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comments everyone! Welcome Annie!
ReplyDeleteAnd... HAPPY AUSTRALIA DAY!!! ❤✾✰ ✵ ❀ ♪ ♫ ♩ ♬
I've been writing all week, and I'm up early translating EU's VAT tax laws while listening to Frank Sinatra ("Fly me to the Moon" on repeat). Fun fun...
Thank you all for patiently waiting, coming back, reading, thank you for your e-mails! Love you guys all!! The best part of this blog is all the friends I've made for which I'm very grateful! ♥ ❤ ❥ ❣ ❦ ❧
Great chapter. You are a talented writer & I always look forward to your updates.
ReplyDeleteGood morning Emine :)
ReplyDeleteI think I was going into withdraw waiting for this. I just might be a little bit addicted LOL.
Ah the honeymoon is coming to an end :( .. but that means the drama is about to come, and I can't wait. I think....
I liked seeing Christian's side of this chapter. We got a sneak peek at this reaction to the marks and I am looking forward to more of that in the next one. I loved when you added the Taylor stuff where CG was wondering why he didn't cover her up... I have really come to enjoy seeing their friendship in this. I do think since Ana came into his life CG sees Taylor more of a friend. And I am really happy you are showing that.
I've enjoyed seeing Christian go on this journey finding love with Ana and now that they are married I am looking forward to seeing it from that point of view.
Thanks again for the update it was great as always!
-Vee
another great chapter, your stuuf is so good. looking forward to the next one.
ReplyDeleteBrilliant as ever thank you, have been reading for a while now and im loving your portrayal of Christians p o v , keep up the good work girl your doing an amazing job. Hugs and kisses from Ireland xx
ReplyDeleteIve been stalking your blog since Monday for the new post. Well Worth the wait!!! Amazing job as always!
ReplyDeleteResh..
Emine,
ReplyDeleteGirl my toes curled, and I laugh so hard at CG POV but it so true girl. So the hunk going to LA the chase is still on LOL. As always loved it!
Laters,
Your devoted Fan!!
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ReplyDeleteHere full version
Another fabulous chapter, it was worth the wait!! Your writing is amazing!!! Can't wait for the next chapter!
ReplyDeleteHappy New Year Emine. This was well worth the wait. Loved it, but then again I love all of the chapters. Anxiously awaiting the next one.
ReplyDeleteLove the chapter.... Looking forward to the next chapter.... Nina
ReplyDeleteThe more of these I read the harder it is to wait on the next chapter. It's well worht the wait everytime though :) Keep up the amazing work!
ReplyDeleteEmine,
ReplyDeleteI have to agree, loved seeing his 50 controlling side again! I have missed it! I love this part of the trilogy! Thanks for making it better from his side! So worth the wait!!
Love & Laters,
Jennifer
I loved this chapter!! It was one that I was anticipating and it was truly splendid. Glad you are feeling better. Thanks for taking the time to do this for all the fans. You are so good at Christian's POV. I also liked seeing him controlling a bit and loving as well. It is amazing how many people truly connected to this series and I agree-it comes down to a great love story.
ReplyDeleteGood evening everyone!
ReplyDeleteI've missed all of you guys, and welcome Resh!
Price 50, I love the song, I've been listening to it all afternoon.
Jennifer, as you know my friend, 50's controlling side is never too far away, just carefully tucked under the surface. Even during honeymoon, that's ready to jump out. But because we've had a good long hiatus thanks to the holidays, we've missed that part, and I personally think that jealousy is a good spice (as long as its not overdone). Who would want a man who is disinterested in his woman?
But, that's me.
Now that we're getting close to the end of the honeymoon, a lot more action to come quite soon. I will try to post one chapter a week. I'm also working on the Pella Series as well as working, so, my time seems tight, but I love CG and Ana, so, I will keep writing, and make time.
The Pella Series website is finally up:
www.thepellaseries.com
as well as the FB site:
http://www.facebook.com/ThePellaSeries
I'll be writing all day tomorrow. Hope you're all doing well!
Hi Emine,
DeleteI noticed on chapter I page on www.thepellaseries.com there's a contact information form. Is it meant to be there? Just wasnt sure if thats something you missed or its purposely there.
Hope you will post more of AP soon and of course CG. (im greedy when it comes to your work) hahaha..
Aud
Hey Emine, its been a while and I really missed your writing but well worth the wait.. Thank you for a beautiful chapter really enjoyed it can't wait for next week...
ReplyDeleteLotsa luv
Hazel (South Africa)
Hey Emine, its been a while and we have really missed you.. Glad you back thank you for the great chapter loved it can't wait for the action when they get back home from their honeymoon...
ReplyDeleteLotsa luv
Hazel (South Africa)
Hey everyone!
ReplyDeleteI have been concerned with the news coming out of Brazil with the deadly fire in a night club, and the floods in Australia.
Are you, your families, relatives well? Let me know. Hope everyone's well, and that you're all safe and sound.
love to you all!
Thank you again for a great chapter. Like everyone else patiently waiting for the action to begin.
ReplyDeleteWill you be posting a new chapter this week?
Its so nice to once again read about Christian and Ana! So missed them!! NIEVES
ReplyDeleteEmine,
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful lady you are to ask about us on the otherside of the world. The floods here are bad but it was the winds that caused most of our problems. We are getting back on track and only lost power for 48 hours, Other people are allot worse off. Thank you for your 50's blog and also the Pella series which I love. Make sure you get rested while doing all this work and don't burn yourself out.
Best wishes and regards
Theresa
(Queensland, Australia)
you're a champion writer!!! have an inkling there's nothing you cannot do. seriously awed i am! and turned on. :) delicious read. books almost completed.. has me feeling good as this means you'd really get to rest. thank you profusely, for doing this epic piece.
ReplyDeletetotal shock if it isn't picked up for paperback publishing! thanks again.
aaarrrggghhh sorry I've been an absent poster.. I promise to change that..
ReplyDeleteAWESOME chapter, loved it all...
I know it's late but HAPPY AUSTRALIA DAY to any other Aussie readers out there, and I'm hoping that everyone out there affected by either the floods in QLD or those who were affected by the Bushfires in NSW/VIC/TAS are all safe and well...
xoxoxoxo
I loved this episode but I have to admit, although I understand Christian and I think Ana was really...I don't want to say stupid but it's what I think she was LOL, on being the beach doing topless, I have to say that I hated this part here and in the book too. All the marks...that's not a hard limit, that's something that can never, ever, happen with me. The only thing that occurs to me when I think of this his when cattle is marked with the "brand" of a ranch. It's a terrible comparison, I know, but what can I say, I just wanted to hurt Christian when I read about the marks -.-'
ReplyDeleteLike, really hurt him :s
But I know it was just know, and the honeymoon is almost ending, thank God, so now I'm really excited for their return to the US and the entire race in the car and all that! :p
Eminé, sweetie, I will reply to you and read your last chapter of Alex Pella series this week. I had my last exam and then I had a work to do with my sister and to help her with some last minute exams she had at school, so I really didn't had the time to properly sit down and read your email and see the video you recommend! It's everything ok with me, and I know you have been working like crazy but I hope is everything ok with you too and all your family! I miss talking with you but I couldn't just reply to you without doing it properly :s
I hope you understand my dear friend :)
A big kiss and all the love,
Catarina*
Happy Australia Day Theresa and Gail! I hope you and your familes are safe.
ReplyDeleteHi Catarina! I've missed you too! I just want to remind you that I've revised and updated Ch 5 after the initial posting. Ch6 is coming up sometime today which will be their first time "meet and greet", but better than Ana and CG's.
Anyway, I have to conduct an OPI test in less than an hour-gotta get ready for it. Then off to writing.
I'll make all the effort to post Ch 13 of CG and Ana Friday evening 8 p.m. PST the latest.
PS: Anyone effected in the Brazilian night club fire? Hope everyone's well, healthy, managing to live throught the cold weather up on our side of the hemisphere.
Hi Emine,
ReplyDeleteIt was well worth the wait. It gave me something to take my mind off of my dad.
Christian was in all of his 50's element here. Took me back to the chapter in the book. Can't wait for his reaction when Ana takes off on the jet ski.lol
Thanks for your hard work hun!!!!
~hugs from~
stress relieved in the Caribbean
Hi Emine,
ReplyDeleteThe fire at the nightclub in Brazil unfortunately killed 234 people and over 80 hospitaliadas follow. The country is in mourning and reando the victims' families. A huge sadness. Only God to comfort their hearts.
I'm from São Paulo, and do not know anyone that crashed in the club, but trsiteza is impossible not to be felt. Thanks for the support and love!
kisses from Brazil.
PS. His version is even better! Eager for the next chapters.
Janaina, I'm so sorry for all the loss in Brazil. This year, I've made quite a few very dear friends in Brazil, and this is such sad new for me. I hope that families of those who were killed find closure and and somehow their hearts find comfort which will be a very hard road ahead.
ReplyDeleteHi mzthang! How's your dad? How are you handling everything? And, how's your aunt in NY? Say hello to her for me. I know she reads, but you talk to her - give her my love.
As I was leaving work on Monday the hospital called and said that they have discharged him so I had to go and pick him up and make sure that he was comfortable etc before I could leave him at home. He is doing much better as I write since he is currently taking his dialysis.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for asking.... it makes it so much easier when you know someone out there is thinking about you.
As for my aunt she lives and breathes for when a new chapter is posted.lol Her husband bought her a laptop for Christmas so she is very happy (especially since her daughter wont have to run her off of hers anymore.lol)
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ReplyDeleteObrigada Emine!!por todo esse carinhos com nois brasileiros!estamos tds muito abalado o pais ta em choque perdemos 235 jovens ..estamoss muito triste !!!amoo seu trabalho nao consigo um dia sem entrar pra ver se vc postou alguma coisa,..continue assim vc esta fazendo um trabalho incrivel!!
ReplyDeleteLovely!
ReplyDeleteDanielle
I enjoyed this chapter. Closer to the book for me.
ReplyDeleteHi Emine,
ReplyDeleteI am a Brazilian leaving abroad for twenty years already, but my heart is there. I am suffering together with those ones who lost their relatives on the night club fire last Sunday. I called my friend who is from Santa Maria to ask if she was OK and if she had lost some relatives. She and her family were OK, but of course, very sad with this tragedy.
Thank you for this chapter. It was amazing as usual!
Love,
Patty C.
Luiza & Patty: I hope every family who has been touched by this tragedy will have a way to move on and heal. ♡ ♡ ♡
ReplyDeleteMzthang-I'm glad your dad is better and very pleased to hear that your aunt got a laptop! Love to both of them ♡
Ok... I'll tell you guys a funny story and get back to writing. (I might have to post tomorrow as opposed to today, because I got emergency translations)..
I have made a total of 6 trips to my girls school yesterday and 4 of them were in the last two hours of school. They had a science fair, so I drove their projects, picked them up, they had to change from their uniforms and they were whinny (and they don't even have hormones yet!)
So, after the science fair, I was ready to drive home with the girls. The parking lot was completely jam packed. Someone backed up just about an inch away from hitting my car with a huge SUV right on to my car! It was so close, my heart was at my throat, because I had kids in the car. If I didn't honk, she would have just rammed into me. So, unintentionally "What the fuck!" escaped my lips which is not part of my daily vocabulary (even though I write it).
Both the girls gasped, and my 7 year old said "Bad word alert! Mommy, you need a 5 minute time out!"
So, when we got home a few minutes later, she and my 10 year old daughter wrote on a piece paper marking my name and where my punishment was to be executed.
My 7 year old set the timer on her tablet.
"Mommy, you're getting this time out because you used bad word. We don't use bad words when we get angry. Do we?" she said shaking her head disapproving. "I need you to sit 5 minutes and think about what you said."
So, I sat there for 5 minutes like an idiot, and when her timer when off, she came to me like a professional mom, and asked, "Did you think about what you said and why you're being punished?"
I replied, "yes, I did."
"Hmm. What did you learn?" she asked.
"That we don't use bad words when we are angry."
"Good girl, mommy," she commanded me, very pleased for having learned my lesson. And of course informed my husband as soon as he got home, that she had to give me a time out for using a bad word.
My husband had to laugh out, "you got busted?" he asked me.
I was going to say shut up, but I didn't want to get another 5 minutes of time. So, I kept my mouth shut. I guess this concludes that time-outs work in our household.
I'll go with Mr. Fox's "What the cuss?" from "The Fantastic Mr. Fox"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJP31ZiUgeM
That little punishment story was hilarious....I was giggling like a fool. I am known for my potty mouth (unfortunately) but I would be bowling over in laughter if my daughter came to me with something like that. I am going to think of this story all day, and giggle, because kid's really do and say the darndest things...lol
ReplyDeleteYour chapter was amazing. (As always) I loved it, and loved the fighting between Ana and Christian. Their fights really show how much devotion and love they have for each other. Loved when Ana flung the brush at him in the original books, so it was even better reading about it from his point of view. Christian would be very wise to remember that the next time he upsets her.
Too funny, Emine!!...Shows you are doing something right !!!
ReplyDeleteI read your funny story during breakkie and laughing imagining the whole thing. Kids.. Hahha they amaze us and caught us at Oh-shit-moments like that.. Hahah
ReplyDeleteLove the time out system. Hahahha and mommy got to do it! Hahha..
I once got out of patient with hubby and swat his back didn't realise my son saw it when he came running and yell excitedly "my turn! My turn!" And smack daddy's bottom.
Opsssieee... Bad example mommy!! Lol!!.. Hope there won't be anymore time out punishment for you today.
Try "what the fork" lol..
Hope your translation went smooth and we get out dose of CG/ana soon :)
a
Emine,
ReplyDeleteGirl I am in tears!!!! Those girls only doing what mommy showed them. Smiles hun!
oh Emine your girls are seriously too cute xx
ReplyDeleteOh, the time out story is simply priceless!!
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ReplyDeleteThe story is adorable. Kids do the most unexpected things.
ReplyDeleteWaiting for the next chapter
Love
S
Dear Emine,
ReplyDeleteYour girls are doing very well :-)
I am also a mother and sometimes my son does similar things to me. It is a sign that our children got our mssage.
I am following your blog and also Pella's web page. It is geeting better and better. Thank you!!!
hello emine
ReplyDeletethanks for this chapter i love it
when can we read the next chapter i can't wait
love from holland
I love reading these posts almost as much as the story. I don't normally comment but love your writing Emine.
ReplyDeleteI love your writing. I look forward to the new chapter each week. Do you have a fb page for this blog as well?? Maybe to alert us when a new chapter has been posted. That would be great! Thank you so much for Christian's POV...makes me love Mr. Grey even more :)
ReplyDeleteI can not wait to read the
ReplyDeletechapter XIII.. super excited!
love your version!
Hi Emine!
ReplyDeleteThanks for another great chapter! Loved it, as usual! I look forward to the next one :)
xo
Ok Emine, I love you. I really do! But you're going to send me to an early grave with these delayed postings of the next chapters. Is that what you want? To send a devoted fan to an early grave?? LOL! I'll keep checking, daily, as usual for my next fix! I'm a 50 junkie, there I said it!
ReplyDeleteOk Emine, how much longer are we going to waite for another post? I love your writing so much it is like a kid on christmas morning waiting to open his gift. Please post soon I am dying here please!!!!.....!
ReplyDelete: ) I can't wait for the next chapter!
ReplyDeleteAny update on the next chapter? Had the best nite at the chippendales, a new chapter would be awesome!
ReplyDeleteDear Emine and all my fellow readers,
ReplyDeleteWISH U GUYS A VERY HAPPY SUPERBOWL DAY!!!!
Amazing story the one you posted today and the time out story was simply adorable.
A few days back my brother too encountered 'the f*** word' written on a graffiti outside of his school gate and came home in a frantic to tell me and wanted me to see the wonder he had come across for myself the next day when I went to pick him up. But I too told him that if he makes me come with him everytime he heard that word, all I will ever be able to do is being dragged around town.:P Reluctantly though he agreed and let it go after 3 days.
And by the way, many congratulations on the Pella Series Website. Just checked out chapter 6, and needless to say TOTALLY LOVED IT!!!!!!
But could u tell me as to when are u posting chapter 13, I just can't wait. Can't help it, I'm desperate.
Loads of love your way
Ana
Hi Ermine,
ReplyDeleteHate to nag, since I know how busy you are.... but, will you be posting soon?
Waitingn in Canada!
Patricia
I have had emergency translations-the nature of my job is that sometimes I don't have forewarning. However, I will post Monday night.
ReplyDeletei have been waiting for chapter XIII so badly that i have been checking every hour to see if it's there. now i will be waiting for Tuesday morning to read it because of the time difference. something to look forward too, but i am sure it'll be worth the wait.
ReplyDeleteWhen will u be posting Emine? I keep checking back to see if the new chapter has been posted lol. I cant wait!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm currently proofreading Ch 13. Hopefully, I'll post in two hours.
ReplyDeleteWaiting...
ReplyDeleteLove
S
Loving your description of Thoughtful Christian on their honeymoon, really trying to make good on his vow to get to know her after they were married. Some of my fave parts are below:
ReplyDeleteThank you for this! Exactly what I thought when I read the book:
He could have gone and put a towel on her for fuck’s sake! His look, gaze and demeanor tell me that he didn't want to cross my boundaries.
Winner of the "That lucky Bee-otch!" Award:
Oh, yes! Mrs. Grey, you’re in for a Christian Grey punishment fuck!
This is reassuring, another part of his getting to know her, but also trying to keep a level playing field, which is something that got lost in the books. She ceased to be a foeman worthy of his steel (Steele worthy of his steel, LOL), and it became uncomfortably queasy-making as she became a passive victim who gave up standing up for herself:
That’s impressively furious; a woman whose wrath could match and exceed mine. A woman fit for me.