tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post7455959779177053850..comments2023-10-10T08:58:52.772-07:00Comments on A Walk in the Clouds: BOOK II - CHAPTER XIII - Christian and Anastasia FanFictionEminé Fougner @ Cowboylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05159434294847088171noreply@blogger.comBlogger56125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-20543882139144857652015-08-03T23:58:10.593-07:002015-08-03T23:58:10.593-07:00This is my first comment about how much I am lovin...This is my first comment about how much I am loving your POV of Christian Grey. I am so excited for my nightly chapter reading and have made it thus far . I am glad that I happened upon your blog, after completion, rather than having to wait for each chapters release. You have amazing insight into his thoughts with all his Fifty Shades of Fuckedupness! I initially was going to get the book "Grey" but to be honest, I so much more enjoy your version and have no need to look any further. Thank you for this opportunity I have and will continue to share this with my friends and family. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17215372870807852443noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-31441329185250709692015-02-28T05:05:03.456-08:002015-02-28T05:05:03.456-08:00I've really enjoyed reading Christian's PO...I've really enjoyed reading Christian's POV. And like I said earlier, the next chapter(s) are the ones I've really wanted to read. That's not saying I haven't wanted to read everything else, because I have.Sannanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-25390173018586109642014-11-28T05:22:04.607-08:002014-11-28T05:22:04.607-08:00"Those who fall into the ocean, hang onto a s..."Those who fall into the ocean, hang onto a snake if they must to stay afloat." <br />Emine, this is a saying from my father's country and I think we share a common language and background with you. I have to say that I enjoy and appreciate your work immensely. Actually, I am neglecting my translation projects just to read your blog. Thank you for your patience and effort. Sevgiler...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-34549558411334561582014-01-31T04:31:41.587-08:002014-01-31T04:31:41.587-08:00Thanks a lot for your job, it make me able to wait...Thanks a lot for your job, it make me able to wait to the film to be finish!!<br />I like the way you're in christian!!<br />Christine from franceAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-66828356373117719472013-10-06T01:30:16.069-07:002013-10-06T01:30:16.069-07:00Emine, First I want to say thank you for the expla...Emine, First I want to say thank you for the explanations and the research you put into all of the information about the spankings. I am one of those people that think the same way as you, I would never tell any one what is proper from THEM in the bedroom but all I will say is that if we were not meant to be spanked (for fun hot sex) then those nerves endings would not be there!! And that is why there are so many flavors in the world because not everyone likes just plain vanilla lol. Love, Melindamnm92275https://www.blogger.com/profile/17481139941342769389noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-25428062774012007052013-10-05T07:32:20.803-07:002013-10-05T07:32:20.803-07:00Thank you for your very instructive explanations E...Thank you for your very instructive explanations Emine. I have to admit that before reading Fifty Shades, I had heard about SDM but had no idea a couple could use it for his/her own pleasure!<br /><br />S. from FranceAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-21823564164229852332013-10-05T06:02:45.073-07:002013-10-05T06:02:45.073-07:00Bom dia Eminne, que bom que tudo já está ficando n...Bom dia Eminne, que bom que tudo já está ficando normal novamente.<br />Quanto ao comentário do Cowboyland, sou totalmente defensora de suas idéias. São ótimas!<br />Acho que nosso amigo está frustrado e preso em um mundo sureal,que não existe mais.<br />Se os pensamentos dele são tão retrógrados o que o leva a procurar romances ERÓTICOS, para sua diversão?<br />Você é ótima em sua versão!<br />Bjos e muita saúde para você e toda sua família!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13676746634735510963noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-78009369692371683102013-10-05T06:01:28.463-07:002013-10-05T06:01:28.463-07:00Bom dia Eminne, que bom que tudo já está ficando n...Bom dia Eminne, que bom que tudo já está ficando normal novamente.<br />Quanto ao comentário do Cowboyland, sou totalmente defensora de suas idéias. São ótimas!<br />Acho que nosso amigo está frustrado e preso em um mundo sureal, não existe mais.<br />Se os pensamentos dele são tão retrógrados o que o leva a procurar romances ERÓTICOS, para sua diversão?<br />Você é ótima em sua versão!<br />Bjos e muita saúde para você e toda sua família!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13676746634735510963noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-72917960596081928212013-10-05T06:00:57.917-07:002013-10-05T06:00:57.917-07:00W Emine.
I'm too disappointed with this guest ...W Emine.<br />I'm too disappointed with this guest to speack right now. I prefer be hironic and say that I'm so glad to be not considered a slut by all the world, so I'm going to translate all to my hubby and find out how many pleasurable nerves there are under my very fat bottocks. We will really try, and try hard Really I respect the opinions of every one but I firmly refuse to be considered a bad person just because, in an healty and safe contest, I don't consider awful the speacking thing. Even if I don't do it,... for now at least. Read Voltaire please.<br /><br />Love you Emine<br /><br />Elenaelyelenanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-7810589158610553192013-10-04T22:36:36.297-07:002013-10-04T22:36:36.297-07:004- Before beginning the spanking, make her perform...4- Before beginning the spanking, make her perform a ritual<br />This could be kneeling in front of you and begging forgiveness for the imaginary transgression. Always agree that she will be forgiven after her "punishment," as you don't want to humiliate her. You should act as if you are only spanking her "for her own good," and you might even tell her about how you intend to ravish her if she is a "good girl" during her spanking.<br /><br />So what should you do once you have her across your knees? Find out how to perform the perfect sexual spanking session<br />5- When she is across your knees, take your time before starting<br />Play with her bottom, squeezing and "testing" its firmness and fullness -- and you can feel between her legs to see if she is getting wet. Tell her what you are going to do to her bottom, and how it will look in a few minutes. If you feel her trembling with excitement, you know she is really ready!<br />6- Ease into the heavier spanking<br />When you actually start the spanking, you may start by spanking her over her clothing, then over her panties (if you have her wearing them). Once you have warmed her bottom, you will always want to spank her on her bare bottom, as that is the sexiest kind of spanking.<br /><br />Alternate a dozen or so spanks with rubs of her bottom, using firm but very sexual stroking to spread the warmth all over her rump. A finger between her legs can be used to get her breathing faster. You can also alternate spanks with gentle rubbing of her clitoris, tugging of her labia or caressing of her anus. This will make her associate spanking with other pleasurable sensations, thus conditioning her to get aroused to spanking. Take your time, savoring every smack and every feel of that delectable behind.<br />7. Use the right technique<br />The slightly cupped palm with fingers together is the best way to spank, as it makes a good smacking sound and reddens the skin without causing excessive pain. If she seems to be unmoved by such spanks, you can give her a few with a flat palm and spread (relaxed) fingers -- those are the stingiest -- until she squirms or responds.<br /><br />A slow tempo, with an irregular rhythm, is the best technique, as the moments of anticipation between each stroke add to the tension; and if she cannot tell when the next stroke might fall, it is doubly effective in increasing her arousal. Again, take your time. Remember, it is not the number of spanks or how hard they are that brings her to a high state of sexual readiness. It is how long and how deeply she feels her submissive helplessness and the total sexual stimulation of her bottom that is the key. <br />Spank her right<br />A really good spanker can sometimes bring his partner to climax from such a sexy over-the-knee spanking. But every lover who knows his partner's symptoms of arousal can judge when the time is right to shift her from the spanking position to implement on his erect shaft, which should be hard and ready from having her naked bottom squirming over it.<br /><br /><br />I hope this helps you to understand the context of sexual spanking.<br />Eminé Fougner @ Cowboylandhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05159434294847088171noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-65458854071812459552013-10-04T22:36:25.735-07:002013-10-04T22:36:25.735-07:00• The physiological process of sexual arousal dem...• The physiological process of sexual arousal demands that before orgasm can occur, blood must be collected and kept in the genitals and nearby areas. Spanking creates just such a physiological response, as the stinging of the skin causes blood to collect in the bottom (and simultaneously in the nearby genitals), thus accomplishing "mechanically" what caresses and kisses do psychologically; <br />• A properly done spanking, such as over the knee or with a cushion or other support propping up the woman's bottom, causes the bottom to squirm from the sting, simultaneously resulting in her rubbing her clitoris on the supporting knee, pillow, etc. <br />• The feeling of "surrender" or submission is an important part of a woman's sexual response, as many women need to give up control and give themselves "permission" to feel sexual. Spanking incites and reinforces such feelings; The last two spanking principles, and some specific tips to make it really hot<br />• However, a woman must feel safe before she can give up control and surrender. Therefore, you must first earn her trust before attempting the game of erotic spanking. You must equate the spanking with sexual pleasure, eschewing any anger, sado-masochistic impulses or desire to humiliate her. <br />• The tacit understanding, no matter what the role play, should be that spanking is a form of foreplay and that orgasm is the goal of both players. Therefore, the actual spanks should be mixed with caresses and gentle rubbing of her bottom and genitalia, and other foreplay if possible. <br />Sexual spanking<br />To use spanking in your sexual repertoire, it is always good to do a little role playing. You can play the stern guardian or headmaster punishing the naughty schoolgirl, or the offended husband or lover pretending to punish his wife or girlfriend for some imaginary transgression. (She lost the game - that's the imaginary transgression. That also satisfies his need of being in control which is equal to his need of having sex with her).<br /><br />There are hundreds of roles that can be used as an "excuse" to give your lover a sexy over-the-knee spanking, but whatever role you choose to play, here are some tips to make it especially sexy (and you'll remember him making her unbutton her shirt, lean down on the billiard table to make shots, stretch, etc. so he put her in the mood and position that is arousing to both, and below are the methods it can be applied to various situations):<br />1- Give her a specific "punishment" time and make her wait for it<br />The anticipation will add to her sexual arousal and increase her receptivity. You can accentuate this by making her wear ben-wa balls or play with herself at regular intervals while waiting for her spanking. Of course, you will want to ensure that she obeys your instructions, and that she knows her spanking will be harder if she disobeys.<br />2- Order her to "prepare herself" for her spanking<br />This could mean taking a bath and making herself clean and beautiful, or dressing in a particular way (e.g. in a schoolgirl outfit, in particular lingerie or in another sexy costume). Tell her that the length of her spanking will depend on how beautiful you find her at the appointed time. These acts of preparing herself will have a direct effect on her state of arousal, as it will make her think about it constantly.<br />3- Take your time to inspect her appearance when she presents herself for her spanking<br />Comment on every aspect that might add to her punishment or subtract from it, and let your eyes and hands inspect every inch of her body. The intense scrutiny you are giving her will intensify her excitement.<br />Eminé Fougner @ Cowboylandhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05159434294847088171noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-55229642543836617632013-10-04T22:35:53.855-07:002013-10-04T22:35:53.855-07:00The reader needs to understand that the purpose wa...The reader needs to understand that the purpose wasn't hurting her but increasing her pleasure. Spanking is about intensity of sensation transcending consciousness to directly stimulate the part of the brain that processes sexual pleasure. It bypasses perception and its effect is felt afterwards as an echo. There are pleasure receptors under the layer of fat in buttocks, groin, and thighs. The nerves for pleasure are abundant in the buttocks, but covered with a thick layer of adipose tissue (fat) and that spanking can/does trigger these usually neglected pleasure sensors. Hard spanking is necessary to reach through all the fat.<br /><br />So, if you understand that his intent was never to hurt her, but intensify her pleasure then concept becomes clearer. He was also exercising it within her limits. For the sake of the argument, let’s say that you were with him & you've set your limits of not receiving this sort of "pleasure" then spanking would become your hard limit. Ana wasn't opposed to it. She was only opposed to flogging, paddles and the other really hard punishment tools (which is a lot of women’s hard limit). So it's all about set limits. This was not a hard limit for Ana. That's why Christian likes to determine the hard and soft limits as opposed to just exercising what he likes. It's all about pleasure for both of the involved parties.<br />A while ago, I read a book called "Anatomy of Pleasure" by Dr. Victoria Zdrok (she has a PhD in Clinical Psychology, and a certificate in sex therapy from New Jersey School of Medicine). I have also looked into Kama Sutra, and various books to understand spanking in sexual context. Sex with properly administered spanking is many times better than the one without. So, I'm going to explain it to you point by point. <br /><br />Christian understands sex. Pain and pleasure has a fine line. The spanking you complained was in the context of pleasure. A lot of cultures describe pain as an aphrodisiac. Kama Sutra in particular details how to properly strike a partner during sex. There are depictions in even Etruscan Tombs from 5th century BC where two men are flagellating a woman during an erotic situation, i.e. erotic spanking. This can be carried out bare or gloved hand or with other implements: canes, whips, rulers, rolled up newspapers, hairbrush, feather duster, paddle, riding crops, birches, sneakers, etc. (Ana can't handle the rougher spanking, so she prefer rulers, riding crops or bare hands etc.)<br /><br />When they both know that it's not for punishment, but pleasure, the thought administration is different, so does the thought process to give and receive it. Few things are received: the adrenalin released into her system to counteract the pain, and that in return raises her libido. Endorphins are released which in return translates into sexual arousal and pleasure. It's like a sexual partner digging her nails into the man's back at certain times during sex or neck biting and they only receive pleasure what should normally be painful. <br /><br />But most of all, the turn on isn't so much the sensation of pain, it's in the feeling of helpless submission and vulnerability of being bent before the partner. He pays attention to her behind which is a primary erotic zone, the anticipation of sexual pleasures to come. <br /><br />For the man, the arousing aspect of spanking is the feeling of control and power of his helpless lover (or the illusion of it), and the excitement of playing with her attractive bottom, turning it pink and putting her in the mood for some hot, passionate sex. <br /><br />To master the art of erotic spanking, it is important to understand the following six principles:<br />• The bottom is a prime erogenous zone; however, unlike other zones such as the breasts and back of the neck, the sexual arousal nerves in the bottom are buried in a layer of fat and require harder stimulation -- like in spanking -- to trigger them; <br />Eminé Fougner @ Cowboylandhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05159434294847088171noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-81103858583569102092013-10-04T22:34:37.362-07:002013-10-04T22:34:37.362-07:00EVIE - I know you're going to catch up here, s...EVIE - I know you're going to catch up here, so this info is for you:<br />Evie, I’ think you're missing the point here. And I’ll go to length to explain it to you. <br /><br />First of all, I’d appreciate it if you’d stop seeing women as sluts & bimbos or whores. The way you accuse and perceive women who may enjoy erotic spanking as whores tell me that either you've never had sex in your life, or had it only missionary style which is not the whole context of sex at all. Telling women, and that includes quite a number of us who has been around the block, been married for several years & known our husbands in the biblical sense (to keep it clean for you) the missionary gets old pretty fast; women want more than just lying there and let the husband sit on her like a rooster. I don’t want a husband who has no talent in the bedroom. If this is the man I’m going have sex all my life, he better know the difference between his ass and his elbow and know a few tricks in the sack. You may prefer it differently. That’s YOUR choice. I like Asian food but dislike the items that seem to be still alive or raw; doesn’t mean I accuse people who eat. I don’t eat a lot of the meat products; don’t accuse people of murder who eat everything. Perception. Where do draw the moral lines? Evangelical, Roman Catholic (where every drop of semen is meant for procreation & physical pleasure was shunned upon historically), Muslim (where women are told to cover head to toe, premarital sex is punishable by stoning to death, post marital sex is taboo, men can have 4 wives), or another religion (which you can search online) where husband and wife do not get to see each other naked and have sex in the dark through a hole in the sheet for procreation. What is the norm & who has the right to draw the lines in a couple’s relationship? Where does the basis of your rights and wrongs come from that totally puts Christian’s sexual practices on the wrong side of the scale? If it’s wrong for you, then you certainly won’t be practicing it his way & that would be the end of the story. <br /><br />A lot of the women who read my blog regularly are passionate, and they want more in their relationships. You, coming and telling Christian Grey or people who want more than just missionary in their sex life (calling whore: men/women who sell their body for money, bimbo: an attractive but empty-headed young woman-a sex object, slut: a woman who has many casual sexual partners) is rather unfair. Let me tell you: sex is messy, it's not clean, it can be gentle, it can be rough – if you dislike the idea of the complexity of the sexual relationships, this series is not for you. If people think sex is clean, they’re doing it wrong. <br /><br />Erotic spanking is not brutality. Women enjoy it. It can be very sensual. I'm assuming you've never taken human sexuality in college; otherwise you would already have this basic information. <br /><br />I will try to be informative about this for you and you are of course free to deduce your own conclusion. You have to realize that these books are in "erotic romance" genre. You can't expect to find 19th century classic English novel style, the Romanticism or Victorian literature style love here: this isn't the time of Elisabeth Bennett, Jane Eyre, Lucy Steele, Maria Bertram, Mary Crawford, Lucie Manette, Charles Darnay, Sydney Carton, Mr. Darcy or even Heathcliff for that matter. This is the 21st century. This is what happens now. <br /><br />Let me explain it in the simplest terms possible (human sexuality 101): <br /><br />In a normal relationship, perhaps 99% of the population wouldn't know what Christian knows about sex, because through sex he learned how to control, to be in charge of his body and his surroundings. He doesn't exercise total control with Ana (because she can't tolerate the full extent). <br />Eminé Fougner @ Cowboylandhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05159434294847088171noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-83325526327223557612013-10-04T20:39:32.921-07:002013-10-04T20:39:32.921-07:00Wow Emine...great explanation!Wow Emine...great explanation!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08657616645669584079noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-57867724627758239222013-10-04T17:55:30.693-07:002013-10-04T17:55:30.693-07:00Alternate a dozen or so spanks with rubs of her bo...Alternate a dozen or so spanks with rubs of her bottom, using firm but very sexual stroking to spread the warmth all over her rump. A finger between her legs can be used to get her breathing faster. You can also alternate spanks with gentle rubbing of her clitoris, tugging of her labia or caressing of her anus. This will make her associate spanking with other pleasurable sensations, thus conditioning her to get aroused to spanking. Take your time, savoring every smack and every feel of that delectable behind.<br />7. Use the right technique<br />The slightly cupped palm with fingers together is the best way to spank, as it makes a good smacking sound and reddens the skin without causing excessive pain. If she seems to be unmoved by such spanks, you can give her a few with a flat palm and spread (relaxed) fingers -- those are the stingiest -- until she squirms or responds.<br /><br />A slow tempo, with an irregular rhythm, is the best technique, as the moments of anticipation between each stroke add to the tension; and if she cannot tell when the next stroke might fall, it is doubly effective in increasing her arousal. Again, take your time. Remember, it is not the number of spanks or how hard they are that brings her to a high state of sexual readiness. It is how long and how deeply she feels her submissive helplessness and the total sexual stimulation of her bottom that is the key. <br />spank her right<br />A really good spanker can sometimes bring his partner to climax from such a sexy over-the-knee spanking. But every lover who knows his partner's symptoms of arousal can judge when the time is right to shift her from the spanking position to implement on his erect shaft, which should be hard and ready from having her naked bottom squirming over it.<br /><br /><br />I hope this helps you to understand the context of sexual spanking.<br />Eminé Fougner @ Cowboylandhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05159434294847088171noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-26324059844699438002013-03-25T04:51:18.676-07:002013-03-25T04:51:18.676-07:00I've just had a belated thought, Does CG have ...I've just had a belated thought, Does CG have a pocket in his pyjama pants? He produced a <br />condom when they were on the piano!!jeangbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-68529918522781918962012-10-04T16:34:44.501-07:002012-10-04T16:34:44.501-07:00Dearest Mimoza!
You're quite right in your as...Dearest Mimoza!<br /><br />You're quite right in your assessment. In the course of last several years, I’ve been a volunteer interpreter for shelters all over US and Canada. They have my phone number; and I will answer and interpret any way possible. So, I’ve met so many badly treated individuals who most of the time was unable to get out of the hole they were put in. Physical, mental, verbal abuse... too many to count. But, shockingly a lot of the people (men and women) wouldn’t press charges and hide the abuse. Christian however is very strong, physically and mentally. When real, true love enters into equations, it’s the saving grace. (Faith, hope and love). Ana gives Christian unconditional love, and he loves her in return, and she gives hope for the future and restores his faith in his worth and humanity. That’s what his redemption is about. But without love none of that is possible. <br /><br />I’ve seen some footage of orphanages where children were burnt with scolding hot water. And I was disgusted reading reports about some of those children in orphanages being beaten, and raped. How could they ever recover? How anyone who calls himself/herself a human being could do that to a child, or anyone for that matter? It baffles me. But, in our story love again is the redeemer. Everyone needs love; I think if anyone is devoid of love, they’re ¾ dead, and one good shove then they’re in their perpetual grave. Luckily, we, Mediterranean people are all hot blooded; love is thick in our psyche. And this is by far one of the best love stories ever written in recent history. People underestimate love. Even the main theme of Bible is love “for God so loved the world...”<br /><br />Thank you for reading my friend! Hugs ٩(^‿^)۶<br />Eminé Fougner @ Cowboylandhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05159434294847088171noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-81065492181682512472012-10-04T15:46:04.749-07:002012-10-04T15:46:04.749-07:00My Dear Friend Emine
Thank you for answering in su...My Dear Friend Emine<br />Thank you for answering in such a short time and for enlightening me. I know about Stockholm syndrome effects and they could be accurate etiological factors for Christian’s interpretation of his feeling for Elena, I can see it now. Emine you brought Peace to my soul! <br />Regarding his personal growth and metamorphosis I completely agree with you and can only say: Love IS All WE NEED. The environment, the hell where Christian spends first yrs of his childhood are not close to the worst orphanage in Russia or even in Romania. Children may be neglected there but never abused like he was. <br />It will be very interesting and educational if you write a chapter about Elena’s relationship with her husband and how did she broke up with Christian. <br />I don’t know you in real material world and it is hard to believe that we will meet each other in a near future since I live in Macedonia and you in USA, but I feel free to refer to you as my FRIEND since I have developed a strong bond to your way of thinking and feeling. So my dear friend, please, please keep writing. Your version of Fifty Shades Trilogy is so much better that the original one.Mimozanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-37486163886073026882012-10-04T10:03:54.082-07:002012-10-04T10:03:54.082-07:00Hi Mimoza,
You’ve noticed a great detail, but it’...Hi Mimoza,<br /><br />You’ve noticed a great detail, but it’s not what you think :) I wanted to show in away what happens to the abuse victims when they were put through certain things at such a young age. This is something I’ve noticed when I volunteered at Abused Women and Children’s shelters. Sort of like Stockholm syndrome. Christian, as an adolescent thought that he loved Elena; this comes up later in the 2nd book. The reason for this is that he thinks of himself as an imperfect, severely flawed person, and the only acceptable form of love is this twisted kind. Because he doesn’t know any better. What I wanted to emphasize her is that EVERYONE needs love, and not knowing the right way can lead the twisted forms of expression of “love making”. You know this from the Greek tragedies :) This is a huge learning experience for Christian. I wanted to show him at the cusp of the true love, and the one who almost drugged him in his most formidable years in her brand of abuse and control and he just took it a different form of love. Then comes Ana who is normal, and he does have the actual feelings of love for her. But by this time he only thinks of Elena his only friend and nothing more. Because she knows all his twisted past (after all, she got him into it), and being as private as he is, this is the only acceptable friendship. Remember, he’s still like an adolescent in his emotional growth. He denies being in love because Elena brainwashed him all along citing that love is a useless emotion. This is the place he learns to love, but he struggles against-struggling against brainwashing. His consciousness is trying to grow up here. <br /><br />I’m thinking of writing about how her relationship broke up with her husband. Christian doesn’t want her back in the way she does. He sees her as someone from his past, who is now his friend, and someone who has business with him. For us regular people this is hard to comprehend, and up until nearly the end of book 3 he won’t know that he detests her touch. Elena always wants him-that’s a given. It’s Christian who doesn’t want her. <br /><br />This is why the story is sooo good because this is his redemption. No one knows how to save him. He doesn’t know how to save himself. He doesn’t think what Elena did was wrong until Ana is pregnant. You know how children teach you things with this instinct that you want to protect them from everything and all of a sudden all becomes clear. That’s his revelation. I’ll write about it when the time comes.<br /><br />Don’t worry.. You might get part of your answers this week, but the redemption isn’t complete until after the pregnancy. I think God has a great sense of humor. How we people always quick to judge others, yet look at the Bible-God made all these flawed men into prophets. Because we, people will make mistakes, but nothing is better than redemption. He is struggling, and learning to recognize what is wrong; not because they’re some sort of societal norms, but because it finally makes sense to him. Such behaviors are seen in children who are adopted from orphanages in Russia. Because they’re not held or loved, and left to crying, they are unable to form real bond with the adoptive parents a lot of times, because those things are forged even before we learn to speak and think. This phase completely skipped Christian. So, I’m going to show all the phases in the next book. He’s still the Hero of our Time. You’re a smart & intelligent woman to be the first one to notice what I tried to bring across. <br /><br />But again, it’s not about making Elena jealous. She is just a very manipulative bitch; and he doesn’t know that. Sometimes people you trust the most are the ones who end up stabbing you in the back, and she’s it. <br />Eminé Fougner @ Cowboylandhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05159434294847088171noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-3989621288595772932012-10-04T08:27:22.027-07:002012-10-04T08:27:22.027-07:00Dear Emine,
Rereading this chapter I find myself t...Dear Emine,<br />Rereading this chapter I find myself thinking about Christian’s behavior towards Elena. When he tells her that Anastasia is his Girlfriend…why does it sound like he wants to make Elena jealous? When he holds Ana with his arms all that he is thinking about is Elena’s reaction to his intimacy with Ana. And I see that he secretly enjoys making Elena uncomfortable and jealous in other chapters of first and second book too (telling about his sexual experience with Ana to Elena, for example in book one). Why? What for? Does he still love her? Did he ever love her? It is not clear to me. His answer to Ana’s question (Did you love her) was NO in Georgia but later he confess the opposite. And what most worry me: Does he want Elena back as a lover/sub or whatever, NOW when he has Ana in his life? I don’t want to think like that, it makes me sick. I have always thinking of him as a mythical hero who would die for his love. Ah, you understand, it is a baggage from my uprising with Macedonian and Greek myths… But the question is does he know at this point of their love story who is his love really? In other words: when will he aknowellege Ana as a love of his life and not Elena? I think that Christian doesn’t know the answer to this question at this point. I have a feeling that he constantly compare Ana to Elena: even during their sexual life. <br />There are many points in all 3 books which made me wandering if he was 100% honest to Ana and to himself when he told her that his affair with Elena was finished. Why would they stop their relationship after her husband already found about them and divorced her? If Christian found her love acceptable there was no reason for stopping their relationship. When he wanted to become Dom she (as dominatrix as she is) willingly, only for the sake of keeping him became his sub, so why finishing something which worked for him? <br />Why do I have a bitter taste in my mouth, even an unpleasant feeling of fear that he has feelings and I mean FEELINGS for Elena? This suspicions stay with me all the way from first appearance of Elena in book one to the end of third book, when actually he confess to Anastasia that there was something in the air between him and Elena unsolved, even if he was already happily married to the love of his life ?<br /> Please, please have some rational explanation. I have to be wrong. I want to think of him as a Hero of Our Time.Mimozanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-88622224117419527002012-08-11T10:30:51.910-07:002012-08-11T10:30:51.910-07:00Linda, I'm so happy that your wedding went wit...Linda, I'm so happy that your wedding went without a hitch! I hope the days ahead are also blissful! I'm very happy for you. We're like becoming a group of friends from all around the world. We owe it to our beloved 50 without whom this wouldn't be possible. <br /><br />Love you all!<br /><br />In the fashion of 50, you guys made me happy, and I might, just might post the next chapter today (tit for tat). Let me finish editing it. We'll see what happens.<br /><br />xxxEminé Fougner @ Cowboylandhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05159434294847088171noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-54158796199071018312012-08-11T09:43:55.241-07:002012-08-11T09:43:55.241-07:00hey emine,
just wanted to let you know after you...hey emine, <br /><br />just wanted to let you know after you dedicated this post to me, that my day was amazing :) i had the best day ever and this chapter was a welcome relief when the nerves kicked in! lol <br /><br />just wanted to say thank you for all the hard work you put into these chapters and how you make the time to get to know your readers too!!<br /><br />linda xlindanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-69332363013699526932012-08-10T22:57:53.062-07:002012-08-10T22:57:53.062-07:00Love reading your chapters on Christian's POV ...Love reading your chapters on Christian's POV every week. Thanks for all your hard work and dedication!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-64289423768399443322012-08-10T18:04:48.780-07:002012-08-10T18:04:48.780-07:00I came across your blog a few weeks ago. Wow, you...I came across your blog a few weeks ago. Wow, you are doing such an amazing job of writing Christian's POV, I am addicted. Can't wait for the next chapter and thank you!!Hannahnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1111072375072654565.post-4599250304190194402012-08-10T13:27:16.780-07:002012-08-10T13:27:16.780-07:00Cant wait for the next chapter!!! :)Cant wait for the next chapter!!! :)Brittney Vasquezhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04002945404330682922noreply@blogger.com